These guys made me smile, they got moves and I dig the tune. Like it?

Not sure who has noticed my absence or cared but I felt that an explanation was necessary. I have been on a personal mission trying to find an end to my depression and found myself going deeper down a dark hole. Once I realized where I was, it only made sense that I needed professional help or things would get worse. Truthfully I cant say I am cured or better but I just see things in a different light and that change in perception has opened my eyes to some truths that I needed to find. Every time I logged on to NN I would shy away from communicating with any of my friends, I just felt I couldn't cause I didn't know what to say or who I even was. It was this confusion that let me to think that perhaps something was wrong with the way I saw things, why couldn't I register happiness the way others on site did. I dug deep to search for a reason, an explanation, something to tell me that I was normal just like everyone else. Sadly I found nothing to help me understand feeling normal and thus I began to question what is normal. How can some people take so much pleasure in cumming on a pic while others find it offensive. The key was in the differences, the variety and then I began to really look around. Beauty is everywhere and being happy is a choice that can be taken away from you by your perception of things. Although I suffer from a form of mental illness that plagues one In four people I will overcome it, not because I'm stronger than others but because I realize that I'm weak. Its ok to fall and stumble, sometimes its necessary, we all need to help others and be helped. If you find yourself in a dark place let someone help you, in turn you will help someone, the worst choice you can make is to hide or shy away from people. That being said i would like to invite others to share their stories and help us all discover ourselves. Hopefully this blog will act as a catalyst and bring more awareness to those who just don't understand why. Love you all !!

Where do people find the will do things. I feel my will is gone and I can not get motivated to do anything. This funk has lasted a few months now and has been growing stronger. By nature Im a very shy person and NN has helped me out, however I always felt selfish for not posting more. I had made a personal bet with myself and decided I would post a bunch of pics of the new me after I started getting into shape. Once I started working out things felt great and I was on top of the world and even posted my first pic after a long break. That was 6 months ago and here I am looking back wondering where that will has gone to. Do I not love myself as I once did or am I unable to and why am I here.

As time passed this funk weighs on me more, I want to go back to living the way I did, the only obstacle is me. People say you just find will inside, I have looked and I see it there but have no idea how to set it off. Just do it doesn't work so well for me, I need reasons and a cause, the scarey part is Ive forgotten the reasons I had before....where do I go from here?

I believe everything has a gravity that pulls things towards them. Material objects are easier to comprehend initially, for example planets. People also have a gravity but its more then just their material presence the affects this gravity. Mankind is on the verge of discovering this and so far we have put forth the law of attraction. So how do you affect this law and what is it that you pull towards you in your gravitational field?

This is 6 minutes of your life you wont get back. If you proceed, it is best viewed on larger screens(cant stress this enough). I hope that after you see this you will be glad you gave up your six minutes, if not I'm sorry its only six minutes!! The subject of this blog is where I live, you live here too though and the big question is...

The flight was fairly empty to Mikes delight and he was eagerly anticipating the trip home. After sitting down he noticed a blanket of snow on the wing of the plane, this concerned him. Traveling for the first time in such conditions he decided to focus his attention on the women boarding the plane, the seat beside him was empty. Savage thoughts began to fill his mind, realizing this wasn’t going to help his situation he started tinkering with the lights and a/c on the plane. A mischievous thought entered his mind and he turned the air nozzle above the seat next to him on full. After hearing the hostesses usual spiel he strapped on his seat belt and prepared for the flight.

The snow began piling high on the wing, thoughts of the plane going down in flames returned, suddenly there was a soft tap on his shoulder. A soft female voice whispered “ do you know if this seat is taken?” Stunned for a moment his gaze was fixed up her lips, he shook his head and smiled at her. She sat down, sighed then leaned over with a grin and uttered “ thank god” With a confused look on his face Mike asked “is everything ok?” “Yes yes, I just hate window seats” she remarked with a cute smile. Mikes eyes drifted for a moment down her white blouse, he noticed her nipples perking up from the cold air. Looking back out the window he couldn’t help but chuckle knowing he might have been responsible. She sat back and looked up and the a/c nozzle, then reaching up began to turn the air down. Quickly glancing over for a another look at her perky nipples Mike muttered “need a hand!” Unfortunately he was too late she caught him…so as to avoid any inconvenience he looked up into her eyes quickly with an innocent puppy look. With her eyes fixed on his, she replied “no” in a high pitched voice, then cracked a small smile. Confusion set in, so he turned his attention back to the window.

Images of her body began to creep into his thoughts, he started wondering…what would she taste like, how would she feel, would she fuck him back harder. He started lusting… wanting to know about the sounds of pleasure she would make while being ravaged by him. Blood began to rush into his penis making it swell slowly. He turned his leg away from her to hide his growing cock. Frustrated Mike reached into his bag for some sleeping pills he had intended to take on the flight. popping two pills into his mouth and unscrewed the water bottle in front of him and began to gulp. Out of the corner of his eye he notices her staring at his adams apples bouncing up and down with each gulp. Bringing the bottle down he looked over, their eyes met again, afraid she might see his already semi swollen penis he turns back to the window wondering.. what she is thinking.

Moments turn in minutes and the sleeping pills take effect making Mike feel drowsy, he looks over at her again and she’s staring right back at him. With a deep gasp of air he exhales and turns away dozing off…..thoughts of what her pussy might look like dissipate as he drifts into sleep. The gentle hum of the plane surround him and he focuses hard one last time on hiding his woody before finally dozing off.

The beeping of the fasten seat belt sign blares loudly bringing Mike back, his eyes begin to focus and he feels a tightness in his pants. Looking down he finds his cock is rock hard. Turning his head left he is horrified to see a smirk on his female companions face. “I have been watching you” she whispers, then placing her hand on his thigh she asks “ would you like to come to my hotel room, I am at the airport Fairmont for one night” With a nervous tone in his voice mike remarks “ are you sure?” Her eyes focus on his lips and now he wonders… thinking oh shit and hiding his penis he mumbles “its been a while” She widens her gaze and begins to smile.

She places her hand on top of his and guides his hand to her inner thigh. Mikes heart begins to pump, he feels a rush of blood flooding his penis. Does this women know what savage thought he has, will she be able to satisfy his lust. His grip tightens on her thigh as her eyes widen and she exhales. Realising he is squeezing too tight Mike loosens his hand and begins to caress her inner thigh as she inhales. The smell of fear grips her now, and Mike senses her gentle female nature, its too late he is already past the point of no return he will feast on her flesh soon……………..

The card makes a snapping sound as exit’s the door lock of the hotel room. Mikes eyes fixed upon her ass as she enters the room. He closes the door behind him and walks toward her un buttoning his shirt. She feels overpowered by his presence and backs away closer to the bed. Placing his hands on her hips he pulls her closer to him. The feel of her flesh in his hands drives him wild as he tightens his grip on her ass bringing her pelvis close to his hard cock. They engage in a kiss, his hands move up the small of her back then caressing her shoulder blades he presses her back into him. Feeling her soft breasts pressed against his chest he becomes drunk with lust and runs his right hand up the back of her neck and into her hair. With a hand full of her hair he pulls her back and rips her blouse open with his left hand. She gasps with excitement and Mike pauses for a moment realising he might be too rough. Panting like a mad xxxxx he slows down and gently slips his hand into her exposed bra. The rush of passion envelops him again and he pinches her nipple before pulling her in for another kiss. No her breathing becomes heavier too as she begins to feel his muscular chest digging her nails into his flesh.

The small of sex fills the air as they both begin to perspire. He can feel her moist skin on his chest and torso, the lace of her bra rubs on his smooth chest. Pushing her on to the bed he steps back…..

To be continued