Okay, I will figure out how to insert an image into my blog here, but not tonight. Too much reading and too much trying to figure out something I'm not familiar with...gives me a headache. Well, at least it kept me busy for a few hours. To go a few hours without thinking about sex is an accomplishment for me. Especially since I was thinking about going out by myself because I'm in that kind of mood...which would of likely lead to disappointment of one type or other. And my youngest has volleyball practice in the morning. Can't play yet, but she still has to go. (For which I'm secretly rejoicing!)

Don't even know if I did that right. Giving me a headache.

So, my youngest had an appointment at the orthopedics this morning. They were finally able to see where the little fracture was at and it's healing nicely. But no p.e. or volleyball for another 4 weeks. And of course, volleyball starts next week.

It was really nice tonight, my oldest cooked and her and her fiance even put the food away. Which is only fair, considering the mess she left for me in the kitchen.

Well, thankfully, I have nowhere I have to be tomorrow, so it should be a much more productive day. Where my writing's considered, anyhow. I just have a hard time really focusing when my kids are around. Who am I kidding? If I had a man around I'd be even more distracted. (Cause I wouldn't want one around unless I found him completely...distracting. Otherwise, I'd be mostly annoyed.) So, no matter what I'm doing, as soon as my daughter and her fiance leave, I'm going to write until my hand aches.

Ooh, "Hercules: The Legendary Journeys" is on. My cue to get offline.

Last night, out with my best friend, and she gets all bummy because of all these people getting married and stuff. (We ran into a bachelor party and a wedding party.) So she decides she's going to give her fiance/boyfriend/whatever what he wants and calls him drunk to try to set a date. And I'm supposed to be her maid of honor. They were married before, a long time ago. (I made their cake.) I guess, I don't understand if you don't want to live with someone, be with them a majority of the time, why you'd settle. I mean, I would like to remarry some day myself, but I'd rather be alone than be with someone for the sake of being able to say I have someone. But then, I'm really a romantic at heart. (A commitment phobe romantic...)

Taking a break from my chores and my writing. Plus I haven't sat down with coffee all day yet. Trying to change my schedule some, see if it makes me more productive. I mean, as far as the writing goes. Seems to be working, but since it's only one day...

The thing with that particular ex this past weekend was good, in a way, because it gave me a perspective I was sorely lacking. No more wondering "what if." Any curiosity I had in that direction is definitely dead. Just too bad it took over two years to get it.

I guess, I'd better get back on those chores. Can't really concentrate to write anymore, anyways.

So, last night, I run into one of my exes. I didn't approach him; he's the one that stopped me when I was getting ready to leave. Didn't want me to go. And when I said I was going to have soda cause I was driving, he volunteers to drive me home. Actually, he promised to drive me home. Insisted on it. Then we went somewhere else where he proceeded to ignore me and talk with some other female. And when I confronted him about the ride home-not because I wanted one from him anymore but because I was more than a little drunk-he actually had the balls to tell me he never said anything about giving me a ride home. Then I said something maybe I shouldn't of said, but oh well. I could of said worse.

Other than that, my weekend was wonderful. Took my best friend out both nights. Danced, flirted. But my youngest is hassling me right now. Going to watch "Brave."

A poem I wrote a long time ago-

Mud

The rain is coming down
I hear it on the rooftop
an icy pitter-patter
when will it ever stop?

The rain was like a river
a torrential flood
but the passion of the moment
is nothing more than mud

The love that touched my heart
is nothing but a feeling
now it's steady pain
that keeps my heart reeling

In time this love will fade
in pain that made the flood
when teardrops stop their falling
leaving nerve ends numb.

Last night was fabulous. What was even nicer is my youngest getting up and getting ready for school with no complaints or crankiness whatsoever...because she is not a morning person.

Tonight, hanging out with my best friend. Avoiding the chick with the "crush" because it's getting beyond creepy.

I'm really regretting a recent purchase. Yesterday, I bought my youngest a singing, dancing hamster...she promised she would only make it do that once every Friday. Needless to say, I've been subjected to its annoyance several times already.

Enjoying the fact that all the kids are out of the house for the evening. They're going to see the new "Twilight" movie. I think it's so cute how my future son-in-law pretended he didn't want to see it. He told my oldest he might as well, since he's seen all the other ones.

My youngest will most likely be in a sling for at least another three weeks. Better that than a cast, though.

Getting ready to watch "Hercules: The Legendary Journeys." I think Kevin Sorbo is one of the sexiest most beautiful men ever.