Sadly, Kim and I broke up and so did my participation in the lifestyle. I was invited several time to house parties, but I never accepted because I knew I would feel out of place being alone. I did go to a New Year's Eve party hosted by some friends in the lifestyle. I knew it would be fun, but I still felt a bit out of place. It just isn't the same unless you are there with someone. It's that feeling that you'll be going home with him as well that's reassuring.

Since then, I've dated a few fellows I've met online. Some I met hoping there might be something long term and others were just a one-time fling. I hate the one time things, it makes me feel cheap. But hey, I've got needs and a willing guy is all I need at times. I wish I could find a good fuck buddy that is single and lives nearby. I'm so tired of all the married guys and the traveling men. I want someone that is free to call and can come whenever the need arises. Married guys and traveling guys can't do that.

Thankfully I have had some good luck in finding a regular fb. They usually last a year or so before slowly fading away. Mostly I think they get bored and move on. I do wish a few would call again (Kelly are you reading this?) but I doubt it. Right now, I have one fellow that I don't mind playing with, but he's not around much due to family and work.

My introduction to the lifestyle was set and I enjoyed it. A local off premise club opened up and we became members. It was fun and exciting to have a club where you could be free and open. I preferred the house parties though. It's a place where each individual could have sex with whomever (whoever?) they wanted to. In a normal hook-up, BOTH you and your partner have to be interested in the other couple. At a house party, you can have sex with just the one person, or with the couple, or with several men/women. Plus, you have the voyeur aspect too. Open rooms and closed rooms were available to meet your desires.

One night at the party, I wound up with the host of the house. They often don't have much of a chance to have fun, but this night he wanted to play and I was to be his toy. He always reminded me a bit of Hugh Hefner - lounging around in just a robe and usually had his hand on the ladies ass or breast. He was smooth and so much fun. Anyways, we were in an open room on the bed fucking each other when a group of the ladies came in and declared the floor to be ladies only. About six other women came in and undressed each other and began a train of woman eating woman. Of course what male couldn't resist - they stood obediantly along the walls watching, many half nude and stroking their cocks. My partner and I began fucking doggie style so we both could watch the writing women on the floor. It was my first look at bisexual women enjoying each other. I have to admit it was shocking, and as I am not bi, it really didn't excite me much. But the entire event was interesting.

Another time at the house party, I got the chance to experience my first MFM. It started in the hot tub - my favorite place. I was in the tub with several other people chatting. One couple got out and then we realized I was the only female with three other guys. I had been kissing and stroking one guy and then moved around and straddled another. Our groins ground into on another. I leaned back to get my hair wet and found myself in the chest of another guy. He leaned over and kissed me deeply and slipped his hand into my swim suit. I straightened back up to grind my guy again when the top of my suit came off. Ah, bare breasts! My grinding partner smiled as a nearby guy fondled one. Soon, I was off the grinding guy and next to two guys who were kissing and fondling my tits. I alternated kissing from one to the other. I felt a hand between my legs and wasn't really sure who it was that was rubbing my clit. Eventually he helped me pull off my bottoms and began to finger my clit in earnest. I was excited and nearly floating on the top of the water. One guy really got off to my pussy dipping in and out of the water and began to eat me. It was quite an experience - my hands were stroking a cock and they were sucking my nipples and kissing me while another was eating me out. One of the guys had to leave after a bit, so the other two gentlemen suggested we take our party to a room. I was ready to go, I wanted to be fucked. We dried off a bit and headed for a bedroom. It didn't take long and I was sucking a guy while the other was fucking me doggie style. I came so many times from being eaten I couldn't keep count. They were both a lot of fun and very exciting. I remember sitting on one guys face while the other kissed and pulled my nipples.

At the end of another party we stayed late to help clean up the house. I was in a babydoll top and little thong cleaning up the dining room. Having all that sex we tend to eat and drink a lot too. I was wiping down the dining room table when one of the guys, Mark, walked up behind me and said 'your ass is just asking to be fucked' and spanked me a little. I hadn't played with Mark before, but I knew him to have a great sense of humor. He was serious though because I felt his groin up against my ass. I straightened up and felt his hand on my back pressing me down again. His mound moved in slow circles on my cheeks. I was enjoying the play. I dropped the dish rag and matched his slow gyrations. He then dropped his pants and deftly got my thong off in almost one movement. I then felt his stiff cock between my legs. We continued the slow gyrations amidst the others cleaning. They cleaned up almost as if we were invisible. His cock got harder and stiffer and I got wetter and wetter. You could hear my wetness as his cock moved around. Finally I leaned over more and he slipped inside with a great stroke. His hands tightened on my hips and the gentle strokes slowly became faster and harder. I came quickly after he shot his load inside me. After he pulled out of me, the host then tossed a washrag at us and said if we didn't get to cleaning up he'd spank us both, but then he knew that would only get us all in bed again. We all laughed and finished cleaning up the house.

After that wild party, we were invited to a house party by one of the couples at the party. There were so many people at this house party, it was skin to skin just moving from room to room. But it was a good time for us to be introduced to the lifestyle as the crowd was varied and we could do as we wished. Kim (my bf) and I chatted with many couples and he eventually left me with one guy while he made a play for another lady. The guy I was with was super nice and told me a lot about the lifestyle and the circle of friends they had. He was legally blind and had a great sense of touch. He took his time with me and asked me if I'd like to go play with him upstairs. I agreed and told him he'd have to talk me through it all. I was nervous again.

The rooms were packed upstairs, but there was a mattress on the floor of the big hall that all the upstairs rooms opened upon. He remarked that it wasn't the best spot for a newbie, as it had so little privacy. I told him it would be okay anyways as the mattress was hidden a bit by the stairs. He laughed and said it was all hidden to him, since he couldn't see in the dark anyways. He fondled and caressed me like I'd never had before. I think it was due to his blindness, he was awesome and my skin was so easily aroused from his touching and kissing. We fucked for about an hour it seemed while others passed by to get to the stairs. Some would stay and watch a bit and I didn't mind at all.

After cleaning up, I dressed in a purple lace slip (no panties) and rejoined my bf in the common area. He teased me about being with that guy for so long. Apparently he was one of the onlookers. We chatted with the others and watched a porno flick on the television. I left to get another drink and wound up chatting with another fellow. He introduced himself by pressing his groin into my ass as I bent into the fridge to get a drink. I stood up and turned around and he kissed me. What a fast one he was. He had a quick wit and soon we were upstairs in a room where another couple was fucking on the air mattress. We took the bed and soon he was sliding his cock into my wet pussy. He was a great kisser too. We fucked
til we came twice each.

We met a lot of people there and everyone invited us to cum back!

Our first swinging party was to be the 2000 New Years Party. I had no idea what to wear, or what I'd be doing. Kim (my boyfriend) had been chatting with another couple and they began chatting with me as well and answered all my questions. One thing that I really liked about this group of people was that there were rules to be followed and they basically boiled down to one - the woman always rules. So if she says no, then that's it. So I could be free to do as little or as much as I wanted without fear of being pressured. That put me at ease instantly.

I decided to wear a nice party dress with a hot pink lace slip underneath and a pink thong. I left my tanned legs bare and wore a pair of black strappy high heels. I figured if I got over being so nervous I could strip down in layers bit by bit until I felt at ease.

The party was huge - I think there was 100 couples there. It was at a local hotel conference room. Tables were everywhere, food and drink were spread out on the back walls and the band was getting everyone excited and dancing in the front. We met our online friends and they instantly said we'd have a great time and took us around to meet their friends who they thought we'd be a good match for. They did mention that not everyone in the lifestyle has the same goals and so their will be some that you don't mesh with. We were greeted with open arms, kisses, some quick ass grabbing and lots of friendship. The women were dressed in a variety of clothing - formal gowns, simple dresses, lingerie, slutty stuff all the way down to just thongs. It was all good. The guys were also dressed up/down from tuxedos to thongs. It was truly an ecletic mix of people. All ages too.

I danced with several guys and finally decided to take off my dress. My dance partner took it off for me on the dance floor and we got a lot of cheers when it came off. I kept the lace slip on the entire time, but I did take off the thong later that night. I had a lot of fun bending over and baring my ass to the fellows.

It was a great evening. We wound up sharing a room with the first couple and played with them on the bed. We didn't have sex, but just had lots of foreplay with the others then swapped and fucked our partners. It was exciting and a great introduction to the lifestyle.

In 1999, a guy I was dating suggested swinging to me. I don't know how he did it, so guys don't ask, but I agreed that it might be a fun thing to try. After all, who wouldn't like a party where you and your mate could go to have fun playing and fucking other people? Yeah I know, most wives and girlfirends wouldn't go for it, but I thought it would be fun. And it is

I told another online friend about this swinging thing. I just wasn't sure how I'd feel being so open about it all and if I'd feel self conscious being at a fucking party. He was interested in the topic too (we were online geek friends normally) and suggested that the four of us get together and try it out. But we wouldn't actually be swinging, instead we'd just fuck in front of the other couple while they were also fucking. The little party went pretty well, although I was terribly nervous. I had never met the other couple before, but I did know him for several months, maybe even a year, online. Anyways, it started out like any party - chatting, eating and drinking. Then somehow, we were on the floor and sofa of the living room fucking. It was awesome to see and hear the other couple a few feet away fucking too. We all came and laughed a bit afterwards. We talked about how strange it was at first but then after we got started it was so exciting.

So with that first time behind us, my boyfriend and I decided to give it a go. We were to become swingers.

I don't know how it started, but my husband (we're divorced now) and I started messing around outside. I loved it, it's such a thrill and a real turn on too.

Anyways, about 15 years ago there was a new highway being built near our home, they blocked off all the intersecting roads that the highway would cross with. We liked to drive to those blocked roads, get out and play around. We had a small pick up at the time, so it was the perfect height for me to sit on the tailgate and have him fuck me standing. I'd also sit on the hood so he could eat and finger me. I just loved it, I'd lean back and feel the cool breeze drift by and watch the stars while he was getting me soaking wet. Then I'd cum again and again. I'd beg for him to fuck me, but he loved being in charge and kept eating me out until he was good and ready.

Another favorite place was on a small dirt road. I think it was a future entrance to a construction site. One time we got caught. I was naked on the tail gate with my legs spread wide and my husband was sliding his cock into me when another car drove up. We freaked out. My hubby quickly pulled up his pants and I just crouched behind him. The car turned off his lights and stayed back in the distance. We weren't sure what to make of this, so we talked a bit and decided to play it cool. After all, we were married consenting adults. Okay okay, so we were fucking naked too. Anyways, the car just sat there, and it got my hubby really excited. He started playing with me trying to get me to let him fuck me in front of the peeping car. I wasn't sure of it, but geez, he knew exactly how to make me forget my worries. He slipped his fingers in my cunt and started kissing and sucking my nipples. I soon forgot all about the car watching us and soon was back to begging for his hard cock to be inside my wet pussy. We came hard and wild. We cleaned up, hubby put on his shorts and we got in the truck. Our visitor flashed his lights in thanks and left us.

I can say we did have some great sex. Too bad he was a jerk and eventually got so crazy he stopped wanting sex.

Going to college, I also worked at a fast food chicken place. I had no car and relied on a girlfriend who also worked there or my parents for transportation. There was a guy who also worked there that was a big tease as well. We hit it off well teasing each other. One time after closing we had finished cleaning up the place and I was about to call my parents to come pick me up. Jimmy offered to take me since it wasn't far from his house. I agreed thinking nothing of it. In the car I asked if we could drive with the windows down because I hated the smell of my uniform after a day in the grease. He laughed and said okay and said I should take off my shirt if it bothers me so much. I looked at him and saw that he was sort of daring me too. I kept looking straight at him as if to call his bluff and unzipped my shirt. His eyes went straight to my breasts when the shirt came open. I took it completely off and he could hardly keep his eyes on the road. He asked if I felt better and I told him it was wonderful, and he should try it. It didn't take any more and his shirt was off too. Then I moved closer into him and let my breast rub his shoulder as I whispered in his ear - "this is so hot and I'm not talking heat" His hand moved to my breasts and he fondled me through my bra. Finally we came to a place in the road where he could pull off and park. He pulled me into the back seat and we fucked like the horny kids we were.

The next time we worked together we kept up the teasing bit. No one knew and we loved it. Of course he always offered to drive me home and you betcha he always had a nude girl in his car getting him hard until he had to pull off and fuck me.

One day we were both working the day shift. He had seniority over me and was closing my register out when my shift ended. The office was really tiny, just enough room for a little table top, a chair, and another person who watches as they count your register. This was the first time since we'd been fucking around that we were in the office counting. He told me to shut the door because it was too loud with the others working. When the door shut, he put my cash drawer on the floor, turned around and began taking off my pants. Of course I let him, I knew how good he was at fingering me in the car on our drives home. He fingered me til I was sopping wet then managed to set me onto the table where he began to eat me. Oh my, it was so exciting I loved it. To think that Jimmy was eating me when the rest of the crew was just outside the door working. What a turn on. I came hard and often. I told him we needed to stop a few times, but it was half hearted. How can I say stop when a guy is licking your clit and fingering your pussy? Finally we did stop, but only so he could turn me over on the table and fuck me doggie style. I honestly don't know how I could cum and keep quiet too.

We didn't have very many opportunities to fuck in the office, but we did have many sex drives home. We also had lunch together and I'd use my foot to masturbate him under the table.

Jimmy, where ever you are dear.... I had an awesome time.

My first post here. I plan on keeping a diary of sorts here where I can post all the naughty things I've done in the past and all the naughty things I do or plan on doing.

Ah, where to start? hmmm, I guess I'll start with the early years. I think I'm a closet exhibitionist. I have no problems with being nude and lately I've come to realize how exciting it is for someone to see me nude. It's such a turn on for me to see them looking at me, moving a bit to get a better view.

Anyways, when I was just a kid I can remember playing doctor with my cousin who was a year younger than I am. We always played outside whenever I was visiting the ranch and our parents never worried about where we were. Sometimes, we'd be in the horse pens, or the cattle chutes or out by the tank. Those were the days. I don't know how it started but I remember my cousin and I stripping naked for each other and poking at each others bodies. We never had sex, but I do remember getting my cousin hard from touching him, and he would stick a finger inside me. We did this a lot, I can remember being naked out in the bushes near the tank and up in the announcer's stand at the rodeo practice arena.

Years later when I was a teen I had a strange rash on my body. I went to the hospital (it's a teaching hospital) and had the doctor take a look. This rash looks like a Christmas tree on my back, and there is a weird rough patch below my belly button. It didn't itch much, but it was bothersome and didn't seem like it was going away. So I'm in the silly dressing gown they give you, but it's simply pulled off my chest and basically covering up my legs, and I'm sitting on the table. The doc takes a look at my rash and asks if he can bring in some other doctors to take a look because it's a very unusual rash. I agree nervously. About 10 other young doctors come crowding around. The first doctor asks me to stand so I can turn around. I do, but the excitement of it all causes me to stand facing the guys and faint, letting my gown fall to the floor. One of them catches me and I wake up to find myself on the table nude. I was in a haze and never noticed anything.

Afterwards, I told my boyfriend about it and he said he'd pay to watch me strip in front of 10 doctors and have them lift me on the table. It was kinda exciting.