Feb 5 day 36
Got up at 8 Me time. +1 let dogs out to play,
Went to work had lunch with R scrambled eggs. Yum . I should do lunch more. He is going to need it.
Got a message that Martha is not doing well. really sucks, but she at least got a few days at home with family.

Had talk with boss, need to clean up my mess. Might move to another shop with a few projects.
Put S’s mags together. One bad coil. And all my spare ones are bad… that sucks. But at least I know what his miss was.

Raining at time to go home. Stopped at looked at tool boxes.

Lasagna soup for dinner. Pretty good. She had beer and basketball game too. I didn’t do the dishes. Need to hit that in the morning.

Sanded her arches and clipped her toes. Pulled a couple hairs on her butt. Hot washrag and wiped her ass. No coconut oil. she is in a t shirt,
Went to take a shower and she is snoring

No hugs
No change except solo count

0 - 36 - total days of year
30 Solo functions
23 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away
6 night her travel
2 night her travel/me travel both out not together

i believe this is correct



Feb 4
Got up dogs out. Went to work sainted sealant
C got a new pacemaker
No change except solo count +1

Feb 3
Returned borrowed toy, took it back at 4 pm. Tire went flat as I was filling it up with gas.
No good deed goes unpunished.
Jacked it up and replaced tube. Made a late night by the time I got it put away.
Driving home called to ask about dogs. No answer. Text answer was yes and feed them. Relised it was training night so I stopped in for that. Hazmat yea.
Let dogs out fed the fed cats. Got home around 10.
She was in the shower so I ate leftovers did dishes and went up to say I was home when the shower stopped.
She was putting on pj’s. I said (joking) “do you think you deserve pj’s?” and laughed. Oooops.
She said she did and did I know it was 10 and was really angry.
I related the fun of a flat tire and she was even more mad cause I didn’t call and say that had happened. I responded “I will try and do better.” Oooops again that set her off. I went downstairs and went to sleep on the sofa around 3am. Screw that.

No change except solo count and that early afternoon.


Feb 2 she is home one hug. I did all the dishes. Clean sheets on the bed did a load of wash for her so she had clothes for work
+2

Feb1 +2
6 night her travel
2 night her travel/me travel both out not together

Day 31
Woke up at 630. Crap I am a bit late. Pack a bag quick. Let the dogs out. Feed them, let them out agin. Head to work
Mostly on time. Easy day to first stop, easy second stop. Waffle House for lunch yummy.
Easy third stop. Not many texts today a “good morning” not much. Oh well. Dinner with my part time boss and his wife. It was quite good. A few calls about an accident. There will be lessons
6 night her travel
1 night her travel/me travel both out not together


Day 30
Asleep by 2 awake at 4 roll over up at 430.
Side job kinda. More like angel work. Running down to pick up a girl I met when I was in kindergarten. Cancer came back. Really sucks. Going to get her home.
Three and a half hours, an fog… short detour to wait for fog and gas.

Short hop, and small wait. Martha arrives with her daughter. She looks good and happy to see me. Her daughter and nephew are thrilled to see me and so excited that I am helping.

Three hours twenty minutes later with much rain and hardly any bumps I get her to her sister and twinsy from grade school. It felt so good to make someone happy. I hope it makes a difference.

Short visit with brother and another hour of rain and fog and I get home. Crappy day of bad weather hopefully it has a positive impact.

Went for Mexican. It tasted yummy. I made it a mile down the road. Pulled over puked at the side of the road. Some muscle spasms and really tight. Call her since I am 12 minutes from home. Need a backup plan incase it gets worse. She is distracted and not really interacting with me. Until I say I puked. Then there is a bit of questions, and concern? She gets girl involved a bit. But mostly a normal reaction from her

Let the dogs out, feel like shit. So sore. Lay down and think I will get up and shower.

+1
6 night her travel


Day 29
+1
5 night her travel


Day 28
+1
4 night her travel


Day 27
Surgery early all good
3 night her travel
+2

Day 26 Sunday
She is heading home. Got half way, girl is in pain and bad. She turns around . girl goes to ER at 3pm. she gets there around 9 Appendicitis. Long night
2 night her travel
+1

Day 25
She departed with girls dogs.

1 night her travel
0-24 - total days of year
19. Solo functions
17 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away

Day 24 friday

She is heading out tomorrow

0-24 - total days of year
17. Solo functions
17 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away

Wanted up early. Not feeling it. Up at 8. Alone, might as well - lost interest.

Dogs out. To the paint store to get supplies. Grab a fivestar burger and sweet tea. Nothing sounds good. But I should eat.

Decide to pull the flat tire off the car and get it fixed. Get it to the shop, no leak. Can’t find it. Spray it again. One small nail hole. No nail. And just a tiny bubble. Wahoo. $10 and no more leak. Put it back on, jack is here let’s check the other leaker.
Lots of soapy water. Of course my dumb ass checks the valve stem last. Huge bubbles. Back to the tire store. Stem has a pressure sensor and they don’t have that type. Drive to auto store. $45 for the one that is supposed to be there. The rubber pop in one that is there won’t seat. Needs metal screw in. Of course. Not the $4 one.

Back to the car and now it doesn’t have leaky tires. I have been ignoring that stupid shit for a year.

Get ready to leave for the day and see that ups has delivered a box. Sweet! Antenna is here a day early! Decide to stay.

Installed and tested. Works. Life is good.
Take back plumbing parts from poop day. Drop off paperwork for a side job. Talk and BS a bit with B. Find out one of yesterday’s guys is a jerk. Probably won’t work for him again.

Home for leftovers, more soup. D stopped by. We swapped a few lies, it was good to see him.

She got done telling me of her day. Went to shower.
Text “clean my ears please”. Yes
And just like that she is snoring.
Go down stairs, +1. Shower and bed. 3am


0-23 - total days of year
16. Solo functions
17 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away

Up early. 6 am wake up. Dogs out, check weather and what’s open.
Text everyone and set time. 915 pickup. Weather is good. Everything south of Atlanta is closed. They got a little snow.

Everyone is on time. In Florida by lunch, but there is no power anywhere, ice took lines down. Guess I am glad I have chicken salad snacks in my bag. Back by 4. Stop at the store so I have tools for tomorrow. Scrapers and trays.

Go let dogs out. Feed cats, check wood burner. Kill 2 hours with that. Leftovers for dinner. Chicken tortilla soup gets better, not complaining

0-22 - total days of year
15. Solo functions
16 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away

Woke up to phone ringing “we are here to help you with Medicare…”. Fuck off.

Let the dogs out. It is cold. Go back to bed and warm up. Hey I’m alone might as well. +1

Go for lunch. Nothing sounds good. 1/4 with cheese. There are maybe 6 behind the counter. They are doing the best they can. I’m just happy for food. I remember when I couldn’t even get an interview at McD’s. Damn.

Go to work. Start troubleshooting an antenna problem. No the box, climb up on top 10’ up. It is slick and narrow. Not the wire. Yep bad antenna. Ordered and waiting. Put it all back together so nothing gets lost.

M calls. He is leaving his parents house finally. 2 weeks sleeping in the hospital in a recliner waiting. They have taken his dad home to finish waiting. Hour and a half listening. It sure sucks getting old. I reminded him to get food before he got to his place. He said thanks. It is going to be a rough time.

Pack my shit to leave, get in the car. Pull out. It feels funny. Really funny. Stop get out walk around car. Right front tire is flat. All the way flat. Crap. Back in in a spot. Go back inside and call to ask her to come get me. I’m not changing it in the dark at 9 degrees. Fuck that.

30 minutes later phone rings “did someone call for a ride?” Walk out in the cold. Open the door. She says I even turned on the seat for you. Short ride home. Leftovers. A bit of paperwork. She comes in the kitchen. Makes small talk. I listen. Only comment I make “you know you are going to need to change jobs right?” She said yes. Announced she was going to shower. I watch some 80’s music videos. She texts asking me to sand her arches. On my way. Shower and she is asleep. I roll behind her and give a small hug. ‘Happy national hug day”. She said I didn’t see that on the calendar and proceeds to snore.
At least she didn’t swing at me.

0-21 - total days of year
14. Solo functions
15 possible nights of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/ me away

Got up early enough for breakfast. Raining but at least it’s 50. Not a bad day. Just going to end cold.
Easy work day. A few delays. I did better training than I had in a while. The new guy doesn’t need to be punished for my life choices. He heard a few issues when we were driving and she called. Florida being hands free, and earbuds in the bag I used speaker knowing it would be a short call. Normal topics. When she hung up new guy said “I’m sorry. Guess that explains a few things”. I told him to not let me be an ass because of it. And I will try to not channel frustration his way.

Extra work once we got home. Quick hop to St Louis for trucks. Quick meal and home again. Cold. Bitter cold.

Hot soup on the stove and off to training. 2 hours on winter safety. And a check of the equipment. Yeah. No one put the batteries back.

The big E showed up. It was good to see him. New baby isn’t as new now, but life keeps kicking issues in place. We laughed about a lack of affection or any physical touch.

At midnight when tones dropped for chest pain, I went. Just young C and me. He called as I was walking out the door. “You Going?” Yep, see you there.

59 year old. No family history or problems. Had taken antacid and aspirin. Was on the floor in a ball of pain. Yep seen this before. Load her up and send her on the way. Ask C how he is. “I’m good..”. As I step towards him, he senses what’s coming. “No…. NO!” Yeah. You need a hug. He has had a rough year. He half melted and said “I’m ok, thanks”. I told him I was proud of him for considering a therapist. Maybe it will help the nightmares.

Back home. Laid there till 4

0-20 - total days of year
13. Solo functions
14 possible days of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/away

Sleep came around 4. Got up at 10. Rain. Easy day.
Lunch and drive 4 hours to get ready for tomorrow. Nice small dinner and back to the hotel. It is 78 degrees. Nice for south Florida January.
No Tv. Well 6 channels. She was not interested in talking on the phone. So I did what boredom brings. And I was good…. Hahahaha.


Gave up being awake about 4
Need a better format for not counting, I will figure it out eventually

0-19 - total days of year
13. Solo functions
13 possible days of compatibility
1 her sick/ together days
4 work nights in hotel/away

Woke up at 10. Went outside to watch. Just a goof off day. Enjoy the sunshine and relax until it quit running. Their day was over. Nope I can fix it with parts from a spare. Made their day and I got to be the hero… they took me to dinner. Tried calling as I went to go get parts for tomorrow. She was watching the game. Said she would call me later. Its midnight.
So. Two hugs so far this year. One kiss on the cheek. Man I am knocking it out of the park this year
0-15
11
13 available
1 her sick, 3 work

Phone rang at 8. Can you let the dogs out?I’m still at work.. Sure thing I need to be up anyway work starts at 10.
Easy day good weather. till the last 5 minutes then rain and clouds.
Quick 4 hour drive. A steakhouse in the middle of nowhere. Cody’s great food and service. Funny waitress. Really broke up the drive got to the room at 9

I called her twice 14 seconds. Early evening. She had a bad day. And at 10 she answered and talked about her day for 1 ½ hours. I told her to find another job. Because it is just going to get worse..

Asleep at 4
0-15 -2 work
11
13 available
1 her sick

Woke up to “HOUSE KEEPING” pounding on the door. Crap! They start earlier and earlier. Look for phone… open ipad instead… oooooppps. 1045. Was supposed to be downstairs at 1030.
Quick shower and out the door and in the car by 11. Back to Killen’s for lunch and start to wait.
Back at work at 330. Good weather easy day.
Get ready for tomorrow, call and ask if she needs anything on my way home. No, but she needs the neighbors car fixed. She will bring it to me. Ok. She shows up, gets her stuff out of the car takes mine and leaves. I did try to hug, her arms were full. Normal.
Fix bumper get it all reattached. Good to go. Grab my shit, go home drop my stuff. Deliver the car. Walk home.fix leftovers.
Its 1030 she says she is going to bed asks where the keys are. I tell her in the cupholder in K’s driveway. She did not hear me when I said I was dropping it off.
In bed at midnight. Asleep at 4

0-15 -1 work
11
13 available
1 her sick

Didn’t get to sleep till 4 supposed to be at work at 7. Missed the alarms. She didn’t even yell at me from the doorway before she left. I know. Grow up and be responsible… I am responsible. I am responsible for paying all the bills and supporting 3 other humans. I don’t think she cares how thin I am spread. Or that a wrong fart and we will lose everything.
I woke up to my phone ringing and a cheery voice saying let me in, we are working today right? I need to unload my stuff. SHIT! What time is it? 715.
Fuck! I will be there in 15. Scramble and let the dogs out great i am behind… fuck fuck fuck!
Beat the Boss and was ready at 8. But that is a sucky way to start a day. At least the weather was good.
Easy day of work just sit pretty in Houston. Great Brisket at Killen’s.. small tour of Johnson Space Center, great grouper for dinner and a night in a hotel.
She didn’t have anything to say I guess I called her 4 minutes second call 26 seconds. She did not call back.
Fell asleep around 3
0-14
1 work
10
13 available
1 her sick, 1 work