sammiealice's blog post - thanksgiving

we made it though thanksgiving. no one at so much that that there was an explosion. it went better than i expect--no family fights like occurs often. it was the first time i had seen my nieces and nephews together in a while. i know that this will sound like i am a pervert, but you look at these children, who have begun to become or have become adults and you realize that they are sexual beings. i look at my nephew and look at his feet, and they big. i wonder sometimes if my husband gets hard when he looks at his nieces because they are absolutely beautiful and they are so open with their sexualiy. i watched one of the girls sit on her male cousins lap and put her arms around his neck. i made sure that i did not look at him to see if a tent had formed.

we went to do some nature photograph on friday. NOTHING was out. so, two hour drive to see birds and their were none to be see. so, we went to a formal garden to see the decorations for christmas. i try and not get into the christmas spirit until thanksgiving. now i know that this was after christmas, but the the decorations really put me in the mood, but the time we left, i was humming christmas carols. i think that i just love to watch the lights and see the trains.

well, it is back to work in a couple of hours. for some reason, i have be unable to sleep tonight so it will be work without very much sleep. i don't understand why. of course, i have been here for a couple of hours.

as i look at pictures here, and get turned on by both men and women, i wonder if i was 20 if i would be openly bi and would hubby have been willing to marry me if i told him a needed a girl friend sexually. things are so much more open now that that would have been an option. and i wonder what hubby would have done--would he have to me no and make me choose him or women (i would have chosen him), made me share her with him--said ok but he had to have a girlfriend also or just told me ok and that we would have been male-female exclusive and he would have said that i could have a female lover. i remember a line from a song of my youth. it went like this "if i knew then what i know now, i would know a whole more". i don't know what i would have done but it is interesting to think about it.

nite all of my nn friends.


xxxxxxooooooo

sammie alice