Am I just a piece of lint or a bottle cap? Just an object?

It's good to learn, so when does it start and when does it end?
In my work life I'd consider myself pretty together, reliable and a mentor.
I deal with all sorts, I review, I seek to improve. Today I helped a colleague who knew they could have done better. I reassured him explained how it's good to reflect find points to develop but not be so self critical. I found my self explaining how with experience everything gets easier. It's learning.

But where it really counts I know it's a different story. I don't seem to have the ability to learn. I make the same mistakes again. I'm reminded of the saying - repeating the same actions over and over and expecting different results is the definition of insanity. Am I insane? No I don't think so.
I am a dysfunctional perpetual cycle of self destruct.

So what's with the colours?
Feeling blue
Green with envy
Yellow scared
Red with anger (not a great example as is self explanatory)
Etc.

Just a random thought really.

So I've been chatting to someone I'd like to consider a new friend.
Whilst we've been talking they've reminded me of one of many quotes that rings true for me -

"Its like a finger pointing away to the moon. Dont concentrate on the finger or you will miss all that heavenly glory."

For me this has two points that I'm attracted to. The first being the celestial overtones and the second about focusing your attention in the right direction. When I stop to look at the moon and stars I find a certain tranquillity. It puts things back in to perspective. We over complicate life. I find I too easily get distracted and lose my way missing out on the small pleasures the world offers so frequently.

(from Tex blog)

Eighteen random facts for the new year. Let’s get to know each other! I can't wait to read yours!

1. Do you make your bed everyday? No but I kind of pull the cover in a vague way to where it should be.

2. What's your favorite number? 7

3. What is your dream job? Pyrotechnician. I like to make things go bang.

4. If you could, would you go back to school? nope.

5. Can you parallel park? Yes

6. Name a job you had which people would be shocked to know you had.
My jobs have been kind of run of the mill.

7. Do you think aliens are real? Yes

8. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes

9. What is your guilty pleasure? NN

10. What's your dream car? Honda NSX the new one.

11. Do you talk to yourself? More than anyone else.

12. Do you like doing puzzles? Yeah, why not.

13. Favorite music? RNB

14. Coffee or tea? Tea please.

15. Do you hit the snooze button? no, I set my alarm to get up.

16. Love or money? Love, both are hard to get and hard to keep.

17. Pets? Dogs cats and fish.

18. First thing you remember you wanted to be growing up? dont remember

Play along ... copy and paste this onto your wall, change my answers to yours, and let your friends learn a little

I stand in my garden looking up into the sky.
I see the stars, so many, so bright.
The longer I look the more I see.
My eyes adjust to the darkness.
Even more appear, dancing in the sky.
Their beauty, telling a quiet story.
How far away they are.
How much we really don't know.
Stop and take a moment to see them.
Take a moment to realise how small we really are.
How insignificant problems can be.
But remember we are all stars to someone.
If you're feeling under appreciated, you are still shining.

TODAY
is a
GOOD DAY
for a
GOOD DAY!

Well a busy night at work but a decent sleep afterwards. I got up and have spent the afternoon in the garden.
So chatting with my neighbours passing the time of day. I started picking some fruit from my garden. Some lovely juicy blackberries and nice tart black currants. Not a massive crop but very tasty.
A bit of trading with my neighbours fruit for French beans.
French beans went well with my dinner. Very satisfying having home grown produce. And even more so sharing with good neighbours.

Problems are sent to test us. It's not until you can see a problem as an opportunity to make a change that you can put problems to rest. How you make that change is down to you but even if only with little steps it's still a change none the less.

I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.