pretty_ana's_mom's blog post

I am lucky these days in that I have 2 ladies that come to my home to help with things. "Boo" is my home health assistant...about my age...and thankfully we have many similar interests. One being that she's a clean freak which means my home has almost returned to what I would call normal. We've become fast friends, and I'm terribly thankful for that. If you like you can check out her birthday message to me on my voice greeting because believe me was the best part of my birthday.

Taylor is my Community Support worker, and also the baby. Recent grad from the University of Virginia, and plotting her next move to take over the world. She's taking a year off to recoup financially and to prepare for law school admissions. She is incredibly intelligent, but absolutely clueless of the extent of her capabilities. But really it's charming because I'm sure everything will fall into place for her in good time. Thre great things is that she will be handling my transition to Charlotte. And I am thrilled to know that such a competent person will be advocating for me.

These ladies are truly angels, and are slowly getting things in my life headed in a more positive direction. And it couldn't have happened at a better time. Yesterday I had an appointment in Charlotte with my new Lyme doctor, and he said from now on I needed to be seen once a month at minimum. So now the move to Charlotte has become a necessity rather than my preference.

The need for having 2 people to come in and assist I believe is quite telling about my health. Which leads me to a blog I read recently in which the person almost seemed apologetic for not having a recent sexual encounter to tell about. And all I could think is where does that leave me? I haven't had sex in years; so long in fact that I can't put a precise date on the last time. But thankfully I do not feel "less than" because of it. I could make excuses because of my health, but the doctors have never said that I am somehow unable to have sex. I do feel that cam to cam is the best thing in ages that has happened to people who are sick and/or handicapped, but slowly even this option has become a problem. Lately I'm getting "booty called" too much. I'm sure I wouldn't mind as much if I had more time on my hands, but that's just not the case. So I feel if I let the "booty callers" have too much time, then I could be missing out on finding a more fulfilling relationship. So guess I will just have to continue to mull this one over until I can come up with a reasonable solution. It may mean relinquishing blog time for pic taking time because granted I'm not putting myself out there much these days.

You know this is the one thing that I hate about my life. Constantly having to make decisions about the allotment of time when time is scarce and responsibilities are numerous. It sucks...but I guess for the time being I just have to roll with it.

Here's to having fun.