mysecretlife's blog post

twl wrote do what makes you feel good. That's not the same as "what feels good".

I have told T twice that if she has lost interest to just tell me and I will understand and have no hard feelings. She tells me she is but then seldom calls, does not return my texts and acts anything but interested. She has good reasons for us not going out at present but no reason she can't call me. She has been home a month and I have seen her once and that was when she came over and I fixed her breakfast.

We had talked about going to Vegas next weekend. She was going to go meet up with some friends she made while in CA. Last night she said it looks like it might be a girls only trip now. I felt like saying I wanted her to do something with me. They have seen her a lot more over the last 4 months than I have. Sometimes I think that would be sticking up for myself and sometimes just whiney. I feel so ridiculous about this. I am 47yo and feel like this is some damn high school game.

Anyway I am going to give things the month of November to see what happens. If she is not acting more intersted I am going to move on I don't care what she is saying.

Seems crazy to spill my guts like this to a bunch of strangers. There are so many reasons why everyone is here. If anyone has any advice on this I would love to hear it.

You all have a good day.
T