mysecretlife's blog post - Remember T?

A while back I was writing about a girl I had been seeing that was going through a difficult divorce. She seemed a little interested but was very erratic about showing it. I had gotten to the point I really did not think much would come of this relationship but I had told her I would not rush her and would wait on her for a while but not indefinately. I told her I knew her life was very hectic and we would just go at her pace and do whatever she was ready for. Well, about early December she called early in the evening and something really seemed different. I thought her new job and everything was bearing down on her. That was the last I heard from her until after Christmas. I had sent her a bottle of perfume for Christmas with a note. I told her in the note I knew she could not offer much right now and did not expect much. A few other things but told her really this note was that if she was still interested at all she was going to have to let me know. I got a text Christmas Day saying I'll talk to you soon. Well, I don't hear more from her. New Year's Day we have a flight from the hospital where she works and when we pick up the pt you all can guess who the nurse is. I knew this would happen eventually so I just went in got report and the details of the accident.

I'll take a break to remind ppl not to smoke while wearing oxygen. You get nasty facial burns that way.

When I came in the room she gave me a almost uncomfortable little smile and I said hi just like I would have done to anyone else but I did hate how I felt about seeing her. Later that night I was debating about sending her a message about how we should just not even think about seeing each other now and do what we could regarding our ineveitable professional encounters. I was a little surprised when she called me. She said seeing me that morning got her to thinking. She said there had been something she had been told that had really bothered her. We talked about it and while the basic facts were true the person telling the story had exaggerated things greatly and been very wrong about when it happened. We talked for over 1 1/2 hours. I picked up coffee the next morning and we to see her and we talked some more. She said she had appreciated my patience all this time and ask why I had waited and even wanted to be with her. I told her I had seen something in her I had not seen over my last 10 years of dating.

Anyway her divorce is final now and the holidays are over. She is more settled in her job. I told her I knew things were still going to be hectic for her. She has three sons and very little help from her ex and some from her family. I would do what I can and she said she just has never had anybody be good to her so she had trouble accepting that. Told her we would just do what we could. She said she did not want to hold me back. I told her she couldn't even if she tried. I would hang around but when the time came for me to go forward I would try to take her with me if she wanted to go.

I do feel there is a lot of potential here. She has already hurt me all she can. I was completely ready to move on and chalk this up to experience but am so tired of doing that. I know my resolution was to not spend time in go no where relationships. She has promised things will be different. She has a couple weeks to show me. She called this morning and invited me to lunch. We'll just have to see.

I'm rambliing again.

You all have a good day.
T