manlycornhusk's blog post - Anger

Ok, most of you, that are familiar with the psycho that is I, are aware that I'm pretty laid back. It takes a lot to get me fired up because I believe most conflict in this world is caused by doing before thinking. Sooooo, here's the deal....

I'm walking past a pizza joint tonight when some jackass in a pickup truck yells out, "Yeah, get another pizza, you wouldn't want to lose any of that weight!" First of all, I've never hid the fact that I'm a bigger guy. I've been that way all my life. In a way, it's been a godsend because the abuses that are aimed at people like me..you know, different, make you a better person. You don't ridicule because you know what it's like to be ridiculed. You know the pain it causes. Because of that, I don't pass judgement...I accept people for who they are without some ridiculous preconceived notion of how they should be.

Anyway, since I don't want to sound like a crybaby.....What I wanted to say was..........

Tonight, It really pissed me off. Enough, that in my head, I saw myself putting a couple of 45mm slugs through the gas tank of that truck. That kind of scared me, after the fact, that I would still harbor that kind of resentment, that kind of anger for some idiot trying to make himself feel better about himself by belittling others. At 45, I thought I was past the feelings of shame and loneliness I felt when I was younger. Guess I was wrong, I've just gotten better at keeping them hidden away.

This was a vent, by the way....nobody home to hear me so you are the unfortunate recipients in proxy.

Peace and Love and please....be nice to people, they hear you!