kittenmmm's blog post - Cranky bitch

I've been cranky lately. I think it's a combination of the gray weather and being so lost and busy at work. Yes, I'm getting a lot done and I'm learning but at times I get so frustrated at myself. It takes me so long to do things and we're very busy with orders. In the meantime I look around and see everyone I work with getting swamped with work and I feel helpless because I can't do anything about it yet. Then, when I do finish my transfer or whatever it is I'm working on, invariably it has to sit on someone else's desk to get checked before I can officially finish it. Which makes me feel worse because they're busy with other things and they have to take the time to check my work. (the good thing is I usually have very few mistakes so I must be soaking in the info)

I've said before that I'm generally a person of action. If I see a problem I fix it. If I want something done I'll get it done one way or the other. Somehow I will find a solution. So, it's hard for me to sit back and allow myself to learn at a slow pace. It's difficult for me to be patient.

This will all come. I know this rationally. My personality however tends to fight it. I will learn all this new information, I just need to be patient while my teachers finish what "needs" to be done immediately and I am taught in piecemeal. In the meantime, I must realize that what I'm doing is valuable in that it frees them up from the more mundane tasks that have to be done but that take them away from the money making side of the operation. And we all know the bottom line in any business is making money. And I am learning...it just takes me about 5 hours to transfer information to create a quote but, the quote is right

patience cranky bitch...and stop taking it home! That's my message to myself today.

working on it
kitt xxx

p.s. and by the way, I still love this job