kittenmmm's blog post - The Update

Well, the weekend that I got away went wonderfully. I had very little traffic driving up to my sister's and we had a great time just being on our own. Her grandson, who lived with her, had recently moved to his father's house so the two of us just mucked about and did whatever we wanted.
I enjoyed lunch with a dear friend, some shopping and nightly lone walks around town and on the beach. I got to see my niece's new house and spend some quality time with my family.
On one of my walks the fog rolled in. I walked about town for a while and then made my way to the beach. I kicked off my shoes and walked onto the cool sand and out into the water which was unseasonable warm. I strolled away from the pier and soon could see nothing except what was directly around me. As I stood in the water with the waves crashing over my knees I looked around and was enveloped by fog. All my senses were heightened because I couldn't see beyond my hand. The sound of the waves, incessant, and the shroud of the fog reminded me of how truly insignificant I am in the greater scheme of things. The ocean does that to me. I realize that regardless of whether I am here or not, the tide will still come in, the tide will still go out. The birds, fish and fauna that survive on the ocean will continue to thrive. The sun will still rise and set, the moon and stars will still shine and my being does nothing to change that.
While some people may find this thought disheartening I see it in a different manner. To me, it is very liberating to realize how insigniicant you are. It reminds me that I must not be too serious and that I need to relax and enjoy the life I have. It hammers home to me that life is a gift and we really don't have it all that long so we should enjoy the moments that we are given. Grab onto life with both hands and take the wild ride for what it is. We are here but a speck in time so take advantage of it. Let go of the pessimism, petty crap, negativity, whatever is bringing you down and just live. Take what you get and go with it because all your ranting and raving and fighting gets you nowhere. It doesn't stop the tides, the rise and fall of the sun or moon and it makes you miserable. And with such a short amount of time on this planet, who has time for that.
I know its easier said than done and many of us are in situations that are less than ideal but take baby steps. I need to constantly remind myself of the lesson of the sea. But, when I do, I'm a much happier person. I send kisses and hugs to my NN family and hope for all my friends to have their moments of peace and reflection.