hapyjacq's blog post

well it's been a week... one i don't ever want to relive...i would say it's been devastating but i don't know if that is what i'm feeling... i have no clue what emotion i'm feeling... i've tried to figure it out but i can't....

i got some news on wednesday... totally caused me to be incapable of anything for a bit...i've never had a panic attack but i don't know... i felt like i was suffocating....i hope that is something that i never feel again...

for the first time in my life i've had to get help... i needed to talk to someone...i had to call a counselor...this is not something i can deal with alone... of course i have the fam... but sometimes it's good to talk to someone not attached.....

i was told to keep talking... i was told i'm grieving... and it sucks....i really truly hope that nobody ever has to deal with what i am right now.... i'm certainly not alright... but i will be okay....

happy friday everyone.... mwa jacq

p.s. funsexycouple i will never be sad but people do have their moments... let me have mine.....