hapyjacq's blog post

my neighbor and i used to be b/f for years.... we no longer talk...it has lots to do with kids and more to do with something else that i'm not even sure of... bottom line her hubby doesn't want her talking to me... he went to iraq last fall... her and i talked after awhile it started again to be every nite... we just stirred clear of kids and discipline...he came home and the day he did i called her (without knowing he was back).. i said call me in a few days or whatever ... i won't bother you because i don't know how much time you need with hubby....she called ... about a month later and i was just waiting for her to say her hubby wasn't home (which she did).... i told her i would call her back and never did and i've not heard from her since.... that was october... i think i deserve better than to be a closet friend...

when we started talking again while hubby was away.... i would mention this and that and she would say oh yeah i know....hmmmm how??? i totally remember her telling me she read my blogs to see what i was up to or whatever... at the time i was like that's pretty cool.... but now we don't talk again.... there are what i think are some really (for lack of a better word) cool things going on in my life... that i would love to share with you good people.... i love hearing what you all have to say... i love that fact that with the exception of a few twits... everyone cares ...i cherish the support and input that i get from 3 of my favorite NN boys (although my greatest efforts have failed to make them bi-curious lol) even if they, you, whoever doesn't always understand my psycho self.....

but.... do i want all my neighbors to know.... we live on a small street of 10 houses and everyone knows everyone's shit.... except mine... on that most of my neighbors just assume.... if i'm to blog certain stuff ...and my certain stuff isn't bad it's just personal but worth sharing too .... it's just who i want to share it with.... i get to pick and i pick the NN community and my mum and dad and pbc and well of course paul....oh and even my co-workers... but i don't pick my neighbors....i guess it's kinda like i don't feel that they deserve to know anything intimate about me or my family... and the fact that they do or could gets to me..... does any of this make the slightest sense???

well this turned windy...... but my last blog wasn't about an NN member or not a known one... so i still have the blog in my head and want to put it to type but grrrrr .... i just don't know right now....

happy hump day lovers .... mwa jacquie