depotguy's blog post - my big fat gay blog

Does anyone know what makes a blog all oblong and fat? It fills up 2 screens and is very annoying. LUNNAS is the only other blog that looks this way on my computer. Oh well.
Just in the mood to cook today. I just put in a giant pan of lasagne. And I made a huge batch of meatballs,all with fresh basil and homemade tomato sauce. I should start a group home, I cook like I already have one.
I always seem to forget one critical ingredient and have to make a last second dash to the store. And I know I'm going to see 38 people I know and have 2 minute conversations with all of them...Is your brother back from Iraq?, did your dad get laid off? all those conversations that make a community.
Sometimes I feel strange at the store getting "cruised" by women around my age. Either some of these women have impaired "gaydar" or they will settle for any man. Maybe they've never seen a man buy fresh basil. I just want to say to them "DON'T SETTLE", you can have it all! They just seem hungry.
Sometimes I feel strongly led to say something to a complete stranger. I mean led like a voice in my head telling me to tell someone something. Sometimes I have scared the crap out of a complete stranger by answering a question they haven't asked.
This time it was a young father in the checkout line. His wife was holding a few month old baby, and keeping and eye on a 3 year old. He was waiting to pay. The intesity in his eyes was amazing. He must of had a job in auto repair or something, you can't hide those hands. He was watching his family at the end of the conveyor belt,he had his back to me. Then his whole body stiffened and he turned rapidly and looked into my eyes and smiled. I knew I was supposed to tell him that the doubts he had were going to pass. That this was the life he was supposed to live. I didn't. I smiled and said hi and that was that.
I wish I would of told him those things. I wish I could of thanked him for trying so hard . So many young men are not prepared to be fathers. I'm proud of those who try.
Wow, no pictures and more than one paragraph. Perhaps I have a voice after all. thanks