depotguy's blog post - hhmmmmm

Jay had some interesting points in his blog today. I have written about some VERY personal things over the past years and he made me wonder my own sanity for a moment. With further reflection I realize that I write this for me. Sometimes some great comments have helped me see past my own issues and that is a benefit.

I am contemplating confronting a big big issue from my childhood or, well, my early teen years. With a brief internet search I located someone who really should of seen the abusive relationship that developed between myself and the pastor of my church when I was a kid. It is only recently that I have been able to not blame myself for what happened. I really really thought it was all my fault.

So now I want to talk to this guy and tell him how he let me down. I'm not combative or dangerous. I just feel the need to tell someone my side of the story. I don't think this will make me any better just....well....I don't know how this will make me feel. I just need to do it.

I'm awful scared though.

P.S. I got my first egg today!