depotguy's blog post - Warning...this could be long and boring

So I have had a VERY emotional and powerful dream each of the last 2 nights.
Wed. night I dreamed I was visiting a friend in a military hospital. This friend was a combination of many of the straight men I have lusted at over the years but he was mostly a guy I used to know named Ryan. He had come home from the war missing both legs and one arm. He was badly scarred on the rest of his body also. I was trying to cheer him up and he was very morose.

I had my back turned to him and when I turned around he had pulled the sheet off his body and he looked at me and said "all I need to know is if, Anyone.....anyone will ever want to touch me again" He pushed his head way back on the pillow and closed his eyes.

I leaned over the bed and ran my hands over his ab's. We both were crying as I started to give him a blowjob. The sexual part was actually very beautiful but the emotional part is a mess.I woke up very sad.

Last night I dreamed about prison. It was one of those dreams where you are two places at once. A very tiny man born with only a small part of his torso and one arm and a kind of flipper arm was in a prison. (the man closely resembled my friend John from my sept 1 blog)

There was a riot at the prison and the man was trapped. The fires were moving closer to his cell. Here's the weird part. He had a camera set up in his cell for a local cable show he did from the prison. He described what was happening at the prison and then he started to sing a sad song in his tiny voice.

The beginning of the song is lost to me but the chorus went like
What doesn't kill me makes me stronger
What doesn't heal me makes me sad
I know my days aren't getting longer
was the best life I never had

That was a kick in the ass dream