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depotguy's blog post - Waking up

Saturday, January 5, 2008, 1:21:03 PM
I had an odd realization. I was thinking about Cap's comment on one of my blogs that he would switch lives with me so he could have my problems.

What i realized was that I was not able to express my sadness for his loss. On the other side of the spectrum I have not been able to join in Perky's great happiness. The extreme emotional highs and low's are lost to me on the internet. I know, that for me, to express (or try to) those emotions would be a type of forgery.

I think the un-reality of this medium limits the scope of my emotional participation. What it boils down to is...unless I have you in my arms or can look you in the eye, I'm not sure of the depth of my feeling.

Does that make sense?
And is anyone else this weird?

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just_looking123
5-Jan-08 13:36:06
It makes total sense to me. Maybe for a different reason... and I was under a mild attack for saying so a couple of times, but I simply do NOT always believe what I see and read. I need a far closer connection with someone to express my honest sympathy, my understanding, my thoughts for this person and to *trust* in the truth of their words. (Not talking about cap or PG).
That's why you hardly see me commenting something what I actually cannot feel at all because I do not know whether it's fishing for sympathy or attention or reality (as far as reality is an online given fact)
5-Jan-08 13:42:16
Its difficult all around. I find myself at paradox where I feel this connection from communicating with someone. I have made some great friends here. SOme will say how can they be your friends if you have never met them in person? As far as the romantic side, well I have never had that. At times I am lonely, and others I'm okay with being on my own. I do feel things, sometimes maybe too much, and its why I write like I do. To get it off my chest. Wow, I don't know if I even added anything to the great blog and to just looking's profound and honest comment. I think just becuase of how NN is that I see it as a lot more real, that there are real people here behind these photos. Yes there will alwyas be fakes, but you can encounter fakes face to face.
bernie6911
5-Jan-08 13:55:43
Wow very well said.. I too share your dilema of depth of feeling in cyber space.. To me I see someone wright in a blog or say something in chat I believe what they say is 1. True 2. That what they put out there is something their wanting to make happen.. I guess I am weird that way.. I now gather cyber space.. Is a bunch of BS. IE: Never to know if it's real or not..Truth or lies.. Cyber space has been very frustrating for me to get used to and very confusing at times.. What is being said is true or alot of horse crap.. Just my feeling and opinion.. Have a good day..:)
Anya32
5-Jan-08 14:08:44
I think we are all very different. I open my heart to anyone. Be it on-line or otherwise. I don't think you can be too kind,or too loving. But then that's just me. I always trust people and take them at face value until it is proven otherwise. Not often have I been disappointed. I'm usually a pretty good judge of character and stay clear of people I don't gel with. xxxxxxxxxx
she bop
5-Jan-08 14:20:07
Makes exact sense....
valleybud
5-Jan-08 15:12:31
it makes perfect sense....

simply stated...I don't think that Cap, or PG were expecting you to express your feelings about what they were blogging about...

They were simply sharing their own feelings....much the same way you do in your own blogs... I see it as a way of venting ones thoughts...

It's either that or...you're just trying to get your arms around me...:P~
nudone
5-Jan-08 15:53:48
I know exactly what you mean. Well stated.
5-Jan-08 20:56:42
Perfectly.