d_ashley's blog post - understanding the Lord our God...cont. tue.9:49pm

so, after giving it a couple of days rest here, I feel the need to share something that I had mentioned in my last blog that I had said, as that the lord is a he and a she. as I had stated that as being a fact. and so now I will explain in the manner in which I have come to understand him/her. ok?ok.
and boy I can imagine a new visitor now, as they visit this blog as in what the hell is this crap?? thus never to return. oh well. wink,wink guess they'll just have to start at the beginning huh. sorry new visitors. and welcome to my blog.
ok, short and sweet... when the lord came to me back then, I was a very emotionally and mentally broken down person, and I had gone to try and sort out all that I was trying to realize in being what was the truth and what was not for I could not go and find the answer to this delema[sp?] any other way than to just go over all that I knew at that point in my head and hope that I could come up with the real truth on this. sort of taking the pieces of a puzzle that was mixed with the truth and mixed with fiction and putting all the right pieces together thus finding the answer, but as hard as I had tried I was lost and I could not sort it all out. so thats when I had to goto the lord to please help me in finding the real truth in this mess that I had in my head.
and just as I am sitting here writting this now and just as you are sitting there reading this a voice came as in this same way as we are writting and reading this now, and so I'm trying to offer you the idea of what kind of voice that this was so im saying now that it was the same voice that you here now within your head as you read this. and so with that knowledge that we both know now as the kind of voice it was then I can now say that this was the voice of the lord that had spoken to me thus offering to me the answer that I was seeking and as if a house was atop my shoulders thus it was then lifted away and the truth had become clear as a bell to me then. and my answer to the real truth had been trully realized.
so now as I said that I will explain my understanding of the lord in being of a man and a women then you now have the idea of what I am saying as well, for the lord will come to as you, and as he/she does come to you he/she will come to you as how you are, and not some booming voice from above, as he/she will come in a manner that is you, with all the intellect that you have, with all the caracter that you possess, and even as all the humor that you have as well...so like I said he/she will come to you as-you-are. yet not in your voice as what you hear now as you read and I write this yet a voice that is yours yet actually talking to you with just a simple statement or phrase to what you seek, thus not to return say like a conversation, for he/she wont go any further than what you need to know or understand.
so now since I am a man the lord will come to me as a man as my own self so that "I" will be best in understanding as any other, sort of like you being your own best friend, you wont better understand any other than yourself, and so goes the women. right?
and you can think of it this way as well how could we better understand the lord if he should come to us speaking arabic, or french, or even your own language? yet from a voice that is unfamiliar to us?...so after the lord had come to me I just sat there and laughed with this increadible sense of knowledge that the lord came to me as "I" am, with my own logical sense of reasoning, and humor, and intellect like I had just said.
so as I now know how the lord will come me or you I now understand that the lord is in a sense a woman and a man. wink.
so now dont get me wrong as I havent gone and grabbed a bible and hit the sermon trail, as I am still me and nothings changed, yet I do have a better understanding of the lord now, our God... and thats a fact!
man does this feel great to share this, as I have told only one other person since that night. four years ago.
so back to the fun stuff as well in being I'm off for practically the next two weeks and I'm going to enjoy it all!
...and you said short and sweet dave, yea right. oops. he,he. sorry.
I have proof read this only once, so forgive the typos as I'm letting it fly!