arabella_topaz's blog post

Spent over 2 1/2 hours on the phone...and yeah, I even did a lot of the talking. But he had to weird me out with the use of the "L" word again. My first impulse was to tell him he barely knew me how could he know he loves me? But then I thought, that would be awful condescending of me to tell him how he does or doesn't feel. (And not like I don't blame him because I am pretty amazing.) So I just said "okay" which probably wasn't the right thing but it was better than saying nothing and pretending I didn't hear him. Looks like I need to have one of those uncomfortable, awkward conversations. Cause that might be better than frequently feeling awkward and uncomfortable every time he talks about things too far in the future or about how happy he is now, because of me...if he can't slow down to accommodate me, then he's not the right one. But I can't expect him to know that it's making me nervous and awkward and all that if I don't tell him.

I had the best compliment this past weekend. When my gay friend was over for dinner, I was running around in shorts. He told me later that I have amazing legs. When your opposite-sex gay friend tells you you're attractive, you know you're hot. I mean, as long as they're not using a sarcastic tone, you know they really mean it because they're not trying to get in your pants.