arabella_topaz's blog post

Had a great time. Didn't really get any pics (nice ones, anyway, or any showing my whole costume.) Guess I'm going to have to wait to see if anyone else got any decent ones. I'm so picky when it comes to pictures. Of course, I realized quite some time ago that my pictures are not going to look like they did when I was in my twenties but there is such a thing as a flattering angle (and plenty of angles that aren't flattering.) And forget it if there's any kind of mess or clutter that can't be cropped out. I'm just as careful with pictures of other people, too.

Anyway, I met someone last night. I don't know where it's going, or if we're compatible because people unfold over time. But that's what dating is for, getting to know another person. And I'm going to leave sex out of it. I've always been a "live in the moment" kind of girl which is great for a lot of things. But it doesn't work with dating in regards to sex for having a long-term relationship. Sex is so much better when there's an emotional connection anyway. From both sides. I need to feel that the other person actually likes me (not just my girl parts and not just when they're between girlfriends) to really enjoy it. I don't understand why someone would go out of their way to run into me, to tell me they missed me when I made it clear I was not okay ever being casual with them, only for them to tell me-after having sex, mind you-that they just want to hook-up "once in awhile." Or why they'd tell you to call or text but ignore you 90% of the time when you do. And expect you to not take it personal. There's no other way I'm going to take being told (in such an indirect manner) that I'm only good enough for a once-in-awhile screw because whomever they want more isn't available. But the why of all that doesn't matter, just like it doesn't matter how I think I feel about him. All that matters is that our values don't match and therefore, we are clearly incompatible. (Anytime someone makes you feel "less than" it means you're incompatible.)

I guess, I should stop procrastinating and get back to my chores. Even though it's my birthday and I think I shouldn't have to do things I don't want to do. But if I don't do them, they won't get done. And if I don't clean the kitchen, the kids can't make dinner for me. Plus I have company coming over for dinner. Which means I have to get ready to go out a lot earlier than I'm accustomed to.