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Misspriss's blog post - Spring is here. Summer is on the way.

Sunday, April 23, 2017, 7:57:42 PM

It's been a long, cold winter.
My heart broke at the end of October, and the darker, colder days made the ache so much stronger.
It's been a rollercoaster for the past 175 days.
By no means is my grief done. I am not "over it."
But I feel like I have gotten through the darkest storms.

Spring is here. Summer is on the way.

The warmth and sunshine are like a balm to my soul.
I miss my daddy. I will forever miss him. But he lives on through me.
So bring on the sunshine, and bring on the warmth.

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Ley-dd	23-Apr-17 22:00:34 i wish you well, he will always be in your heart

Boots4u	26-Apr-17 13:50:56 He will live on through you :-) you are strong and incredible! Never forget that

powermanp3	28-Apr-17 2:46:07 It never goes away. I wish I could tell you differently, but I won't lie. 6 years and 3 months ago, the same son of a bitch, cancer, claimed my Dad also. I held his hand as he took his final breath. He taught me inner strength, and being British, to have a stiff upper lip. But for weeks, I hyperventilated several times, I'd never done that before, and I could not help it. A few times I dialed his home number, before I realized he wouldn't be there to answer the phone. It was 6 months when I realized, suddenly, that this was the new 'normal' and I had to adapt to it. It does change, the hurt doesn't go away, but it dulls some, and you will find that you will be able to remember him and smile, not tearing up, but reliving the joy you shared. I travel a lot for work, spend a lot of time looking through a windshield, and I talk to him as though he was sitting beside me. I believe he listens. I've only had one dream with him in it, and a couple of times, I swear I've heard his voice. He is still with me, still watching, and now, he doesn't even have to blink. I can't say it gets better, but it does get easier. Your Dad is still watching, the love you shared is still there, and he no longer hurts. I believe he is smiling at you right now. Take care pretty Lady...

Misspriss	28-Apr-17 2:51:56 Thanks Ley. Thank you sweet Boots. And powerman, I needed that message RIGHT now. I'm having a hard night. My brokenness is overwhelming me. I had a few "signs" today and it took me out to realize that Sunday will be 6 months. How? How can it be so long already? I miss his dumb dad jokes. I miss his goofy faces. I miss his laugh so much. How do I live the rest of my life without him in it?? I'm sad. I'm tired. I'm weak.

powermanp3	28-Apr-17 3:15:38 How do you go on? By remembering, he would want you to live life, YOUR life. Certainly, be sad for a while, but you know he wants you to carry on with your life. You won't, you CAN'T forget him, but there will come a day when you realize, you have thought of him in a few hours. Later, it will be a couple of days, that's as far as I've gotten so far. It doesn't mean it's less empty, it doesn't mean you love him less, it means you are healing, as he would want you to. You never really 'move on', he doesn't get pushed out of your mind, but your life still needs to be lived by YOU. Not to worry when you have a bad day, they will come, but each is a little less intense than the last, and they will become fewer. You carry on because he would want you to. Honor him by living.

Misspriss's blog post - Spring is here. Summer is on the way.

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