LushLuce's blog post - Self comparison and fucking with your own head.

It was interesting coming back onto NN after many years. I joined up originally in about 06 then left then came back in 08 and was OBSESSED with the site for a couple of years.
I then was with a partner for several years which has recently ended, I stopped by once or twice in this time.

Anyway, the point is, a decade is a long time. And it almost feels like when you watch pictures of people through the ages... only its with body parts.
I've certainly gotten older, fatter, things definitely do not sit how they did a decade ago (dear god what I'd do to have the body I had issues about back then).

I thought about taking my old photos down for fear of judgement, of comparison, of the 'she was better back then' thoughts that were running through my head. But I didn't because I liked going back over the comments and see the old names I spent so much time online chatting and sharing not just naughty stuff, but life with. Some are still here, some are missing, I wish them all well.

Happy to say coming back has been great, I have had lots of lovely messages and comments and actually feel better about myself now than a week ago so thanks to everyone that has helped on that journey.

Look at me being all philosophical and personal after a bottle of cab sav haha