Fierceboy's blog post - Concentration

As long as I can remember I've been capable moments of extreme mental focus always perforated by distracting, sudden flashes of thoughts about sex. I mean continuously. I always wrote it off as youthful exuberance and then as a passionately hedonistic general outlook but I've never outgrown it and I don't seem to be able to override it for very long regardless of how responsible I'm feeling.

Just now I was happily and intently working on a song with guitar in lap and browser open to multiple windows on key, scale and modal structures and scribblings all over a hand-drawn staff on a page of my notebook and even still, in the middle of all of this attention demanding work my mind stubbornly flashes to images of sex.

I would concede that there is a lot of energy to be harnessed from this kind of mindset but what good is any of it if you can't fucking concentrate for more than ten minutes at a time?! Bloody aggravating.

I guess this is why I've stuck around this site for as long as I have. My mental preoccupation isn't about a need to get off. If it were I'd be sore as hell all the time. It's about a driving interest in sexual interaction, in how others feel about sex... a sort of, "do you see this the way I do too?" Regardless I do wish my id would occasionally shut the fuck up and let me finish something.