Dream_Angel's blog post - LIFE FUCKING SUCKS!!!

I give up, WHEN is it going to stop happening to me?? I mean really??? Today was goin ok. I got up and cooked lunch for JP, then we watched some TV. I bathed all the dogs, and took a shower for us to go to a friends house for dinner. Homeade lasagna, and i don't even like lasagna. haha... ANYWAY, So I had taken like 4 bites of my food and JP comes in with the phone, and says, "it's your mom"... Immediately my heart dropped. I automatically knew that something was wrong, But I thought it was my brother. (see he drives like a bat out of HELL, so I always expect them to tell me he's in the hospital with a few broken bones or something. ya know) WELL I was totally off base...She was calling to tell me that my GRANDMOTHER passed away. (the one that i talked about in the previous blog.) My grandmother was my most favorite person in the world and now she's gone. and I'm heartbroken, and MAD.
I don't know whether i want to hit something, or scream or cry! I'm just screwed up over this! and I don't get it! Some of you will recall that I lost my dad last year too. well actually 1 year, 7 months, and 2 weeks ago. this grandmother is HIS mom! So my family on that side officially just fell apart I think! Even though he had 6 other brothers and sisters.
GOSH i'm just frustrated...