Dream_Angel's blog post - Today...

Marks one year from the day my father passed away. Its been a very shitty day!! But I did go to see my "preacher" today. We had a long talk and visit and it has been really good to get in touch with everyone that I do not talk to on a normal regular basis!! I miss my friends alot. Some of them I don't really have much in common with anymore, but that is part of growing up. its been a rough day for me. I drove past the cemetary, and could not stop. not once, but twice. I'll get someone to go with me tomorrow. so that I can put the flowers down there,before i leave to go back to FL. I miss my house and my bed. Soooo much
Sebastian has been sooo wonderful here this past week. He has actually been listening to me when i say something to him. its amazing.

Very few of you know this but I had a terrible medical experience about three years ago. I had a spinal tap and they sent me home too early. well i ended up back in the hospital for days....i had leaked spinal fluid for like 2.5 days before they readmitted me. ANYWAY, having no spinal fluid is really really bad for your brain, it has nothing to cushion it when you change positions. Causing tremendous amounts of pain. ANYHOOOO....since this happened...sometimes I really have to think about things before i talk, like sound out words in my head before i speak. Sometimes this happens in the middle of a sentence and stuff. its really wierd, and I really have a lot of trouble talking sometimes. today, has been one of those days. I couldnt remember how to say "service" today. And it is soo embarassing to me for my words to get jumbled up. Anyway...I think that is part of the reason I am sooo scatter brained sometimes as well!! ya know! Have a good night everyone... hugs n kisses


P.S. Wtf IS Goin on in the Forums....Is it ever gona stop?