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This is the story of my sexual history.

I have had sexual intercourse with three women.

1) my high school girlfriend. We were very responsible about it, discussing it for a while before deciding it was right. Then she went on the pill and we waited for the requisite month before having sex. Once the damn broke, we were like rabbits. We had a lot of sex, kind of like horny teenagers. We dated for 2 years +. Then, before our senior year ended, we broke it off. We knew that nothing was going to come of it and we wanted a clean break. Of course, no break is clean. We ended up having sex about a month afterwards. And then that was it.

2) College girlfriend. She was freaky. A few years younger than me. She was the first person I ever met that actually admitted to having a one night stand and enjoying it. Her favorite position was doggy with me sticking a finger in her ass. We dated for a long time - the sex was good when we had it. But, she got weird. Suddenly all sex was dirty. Then all physical contact was dirty. And she had a way of manipulating me emotionally. So, I got out. It was hard to get out, too. But that's another story.

3) The wife. She built up what #2 had broken down. SHe helped me get my shit together. She doesn't enjoy sex. She doesn't even like to masturbate. I think it's mostly a control issue. She is reluctant to lose control of herself.

I have had one other penis/vagina contact:

4) Abbreviated sex. No condom, so we stopped. I thought we would get together again. We didn't. Stupid lack of condom.


Other women who have made me cum:

5) College hook up 1. My first experience after HS girl. This one was very good at giving me a hand job. She dod so 3 times. But then she got super clingy, super weird. I ran like the little boy that I was.

6) college hook up 2. The only woman to make me cum from a blow job. And, since I had never had one given that was good before, it was unexpected. And then it was over. And I couldn't get it up in time to have sex - which we both wanted. But she had a plane to catch the next morning and out time was cut short.

That's it. There have been other experiences. I've gone down on three other girls. But no one else has made me cum.

Isn't that sad? I'm a little sad when I look at this. Where is the unadultrated passion in my life?

There is my public self and there is my private self. And, to paraphrase Kipling, "never the twain shall meet." Publicly, I am a clean cut individual. I mean, I'm still a guy and I still do guy things, but I am more norm, perhaps even a little consiervative when it comes to the public perception of a man. I scoff and scorn at guys who behave poorly, who debase women, who are sexist. I trun away from the woman at the club who dresses and acts in an obvious attempt to gain attention. I don't frequent strip clubs or subscribe to Playboy (or the like).

But, privately . . . I am a pervert. There really is no way around the term. I am horny almost all the time. I imagine myself with the women I see, my fantasies border on the extreme. I masturbate 2, sometimes 3 times a day.

I found this site a long time ago, maybe 5 or 6 years. More. It was the first site I ever paid to be a part of, and is still the only site I visit regularly even though I am no longer a premium member. I have met people on here that I consider friends - although the definition of "friends" has change significantly in the last 10 years. Still, I hold a special place in my heart for this site.

And I like to look at naked women.

Thing is, I don't favor the obvious. I like the subtlety, the arty. Sensuality rather than sexuality.

I'm rambling, so I'll stop now. But, I will start posting regularly here. I need to dust the cobwebs off my writing skills. I don't need readers, just practice. Readers would just be a bonus.