After a shattering back half of this year.. I am slowly building myself back up, in all areas.. booo!

I cant tell you how much I have missed this platform.. it really is the only thing that can help me in ways of self esteem.. self confidence.. and less prudish.. yes.. me a prude... I have been away too long!

Since the summer.. I have only taken pics of myself in the dressing rooms.. I look forward to getting a camera again.. the phone takes ok shots.. but its not a camera.. I miss my outside adventures.. I hope to go on some soon..

Hope you are well.. I will come back in status soon.. just still working out some things..

Hugs!!!

Naked hugs to everyone who wants them!!!

W

well long long long time no see...

wish I had the best news as to why...

Was robbed... everything stolen.. my laptop.. my camera.. medicine... money... pretty much everything of value..

With no laptop to get online with.. made life a bit hard... with no camera to help me with my self expression... also hard...

I hope you all have had a great summer... and I look forward to chatting with you again..

Hugs!!!

Dont you think it is time to change the ladies on the front page?

Thanks

W

I am fine everyone.. Just having some health issues that I am taking care of..
I also just needed some time to find my happy again.. No use bringing the sally in the dumps to status..

Hugs to you all!!

Thanks so much for the concern.. makes me smile and feel loved!

HUGS!!!

really?? That is what you want the last thing for me to think about? "I give as good as I get"

So... great news everyone... I am set to look forward to someone who gives as good as they get in the bedroom.. so if I am having a bad day... I am guaranteed to have a shittier day once I get to my lover... cause he is only going to give me as good as he gets.. WTF???

How on earth do you think that is what will turn women on? what a crappy attitude towards sex.. omfG! Lots of women I know are fickle already when it comes to sex.. so why would you do that to yourself?? Are you really getting that much sex you can treat women with that little care and attention..

It is totally possible I am taking it the wrong way.. but come on.. if that is what you put out there for me to read.. all on my own.. with no interpretation.. this is how I take it to mean.. So nope.. you would never EVER catch me in your bed.. no matter what!!

I am fucking fantastic in bed... the idea that I would be treated any less because I was not able to give my full caliber for a session or two.. is a greater turn OFF than body odor!

GOOD DAY SIR!!

Ps... people fill out their profiles for a reason.. so you both don't waste each others time!

signed..
annoyed Wendy

"Need You"

I don't need you brain playing tricks on me
I don't need you double vision that which I sometimes see
I don't need you heart always beating on me
I don't need you pit in my stomach
I don't need you shaky knees

I don't need you
I don't need you me
I don't need you
You need me
You need me

I don't need you legs refusing to stand
I don't need you blood boiling
I don't need you grabbing hands
I don't need you lungs always getting out of breath
I don't need you bloodshot eyes refusing me my rest

I don't need you
I don't need you me
I don't need you
You need me
You need me
You need me
You need me

I don't need you
You need me
I can't live without you, no no no
I don't need you
I don't need you
I can't live without you
You need me

I don't need you
You need me
I don't need you
I don't need you
You need me
You need me


Best song to sing loudly at my body...

Stop inventing problems that don’t exist.

Inventing problems in our mind and then believing them is a clear path to self-sabotage. Too often we amuse ourselves with anxious predictions, deceive ourselves with negative thinking, and ultimately live in a state of hallucination about worst-case scenarios. We overlook everything but the plain, downright, simple, honest truth.

When you invent problems in your relationships, your relationships ultimately suffer. Insecurity is often the culprit. If you doubt yourself and you don’t realize your own worth, you will pass on any opportunity to let others care for you, and you will remain stuck with the insecurity issues that weigh you down.

The insecure passenger does not trust anyone else to drive. They feel out of control. They imagine that the driver is not paying attention. Or they may even fantasize that the slight jolting of the driver stepping on the breaks is a sign of doom via an impending collision. They freak themselves out by assuming that the visions they have invented in their mind represents reality.

What you need to realize is that there are normal idiosyncrasies to any relationship. There are ups and downs and mood changes, moments of affection and closeness and moments of friction. These ups and downs are normal. Wanting to be absolutely close and intimate all the time is like wanting to be a passenger in a car that has no driver.

Next time you feel insecure, and you catch yourself stressing about problems that don’t exist, stop yourself and take a deep breath. Then tell yourself, “This problem I’m concerned with only exists in my mind.” Being able to distinguish between what you imagine and what is actually happening in your life is an important step towards self-confidence. (Read The Road Less Traveled.)

8 Good Morning Questions that Create Happiness

WRITTEN by MARC CHERNOFF

The morning is extremely important. It is the foundation from which the day is built. How you choose to spend your morning can be used to predict what kind of day you’re going to have.

Do you need help focusing on what matters most?

If you think happiness and success means making lots of money and buying lots of stuff, the answer to this question is yes.

Dirty, wrinkled sketches of dead presidents have never made anyone happy in the long run. And how can you expect to be successful if you’re not happy? Money helps along the way, but only you can make yourself happy and successful from the inside out. There isn’t any amount of money that can buy that.

Real happiness and success comes from the quality of your attitude, your relationships, and the emotions you experience each day. That’s where the questions below come in. Ask yourself these questions every morning and I absolutely guarantee that your days will get happier and more prolific over time:

1. What is the most important thing I can do today for my own well-being?

If you don’t take good care of yourself, then you can’t take good care of others either; which is why taking care of yourself is the best selfish thing you can do.

Every new day is a chance to change your life. Work on making life all that you want it to be. Work hard for what you believe, and keep your dreams big and your worries small. Figure out how you can best serve yourself today.

Remember, you never need to carry more than you can hold, just take one small step at a time. And while you’re out there today making decisions instead of excuses, learning new things, and getting closer and closer to your goals, know that there are others out there, like me, who admire your efforts and are striving for greatness too.

2. How can I show my love to those I love?

You don’t need to be perfect to be a perfect friend or lover, but the commitment to your relationship is a precious responsibility. Relationships last a lifetime only when two people make a deliberate choice to keep it, fight for it, and work for it. These acts of love don’t need to be extravagant either; they just need to be true. And true love is always shown in deeds, not just words.

Also, remember that it’s not so much about what you do for your loved ones as it is about the love you put into what you do for them. Learn what matters most to them and make a habit of it. (Angel and I discuss this in more detail in the “Relationships” chapter of 1,000 Little Things Happy, Successful People Do Differently.)

3. How can I encourage myself and others today?

“People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing, that’s why we recommend it daily.” Zig Ziglar said that, and nothing could be closer to the truth.

To accomplish great things, you must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe. Be a dreamer, a believer, and a courageous and cheerful thinker. Be a positive motivator, a productive doer, and a go-getter who keeps her head in the clouds and her feet on the ground. Let the spirit of passion and possibility ignite a fire within you to do something worthwhile today, and don’t forget to spread your enthusiasm to those around you.

4. What can I do to make a positive difference in the lives around me?

Being a genuinely good person, helping others, and leaving the world better than you found it is what a truly rich life is. Knowing deep down that you counted – that someone else’s life would not have been as well off without you in it – that’s priceless. That’s something worth working for.

There are many small, simple actions you can make to profoundly impact your family, your community, and the world. So do your best to leave everything you touch today a little better than you found it.

5. How will I sincerely honor my own truth today?

You have your own way. For you, this way of living is the absolute right way. Honor it.

One of the most influential sources of peace is simply being comfortable with who you really are. Not trading your reality for a role, or your truth for an act. Not giving up your freedom of thought. Not putting on a mask.

There cannot be peace in your external life until you are at peace within yourself, being yourself. It won’t always be easy, but no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning your inner spirit. (Read The Untethered Soul.)

6. What is my intuition telling me about my current path?

Is it telling you to go against the grain? Is it urging you to do something differently? It’s okay to listen to the advice of others, but don’t forget to check in with your own intuition. If it leads you off the well worn path today, so be it.

Don’t apologize for what you feel and what you don’t feel; that’s a betrayal of your truth. No matter how much advice people give you, sometimes you have to feel things out for yourself, make decisions on your own, experience things firsthand, and build your own conclusions from the ground up the old fashion way.

7. What do I appreciate about my life right now?

As Socrates once said, “Contentment is natural wealth, luxury is artificial poverty.”

Do not waste all your happiness by overlooking everything you have for everything you wish you had. If you do, you will never have enough. Instead, appreciate the goodness that is already yours, and you will instantly find a lot more to smile about.

Appreciate the good people and things around you, and you’ll soon find many more of them around you. Truly appreciate your life, and you’ll find that you have more of it to live. (Read Learned Optimism.)

8. What would I like to remember about today?

Do something worth remembering. Try something new. Express your love. Live your truth. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards meaningful goals. Walk your talk. Embrace your gifts. Bounce to the beat of your own drum.

Do whatever it takes to make today a good memory.

Afterthoughts

Remember, asking the right questions is the answer, because the questions you ask yourself on a daily basis determine your focus, and your focus determines your end results. So ask yourself the questions above every morning and watch as the rest of your day falls into place.

This was too good not to post.. I was looking for status questions and came across this.. it moved me and I had to share..

Hugs!!!

*alert... not trying to upset anyone!!!

Sometimes... I am able to shake off the negativity.. and of course being as super sensitive that I am... I am hurt a lot more easy than others.. or so I have experienced in the past... Anyway.. my venting today comes as I have now had a third person tell me that they thought I was a fake account... sigh.. I guess that the other assholes of NN have made it so people actually think I AM A FAKE!!! What the fuck!!!
Now the only one that made any sense to me was being told that they thought I was my ex.. posting revenge pics... now that one I can understand as a possibility.. ( instead of my token response... if I was a fake.. I would not post fat girl pics!!!!) With all the interaction I have done with fellow NNers... it begs my mind to wonder WTF!!!
I am not fake! Nothing on me is fake!! Heck I dont even wear makeup regularly... only if it is a fancy date... or else I am getting pics taken... NO OTHER TIME... I dont have fake eyelashes... or false teeth.. haha... I am a fucking real woman who is fucking pissed off today!!! I know I should just keep it to myself... as anytime I tend to open my mouth.. aka fingers typing... I offend someone.. or all of you... Today... I care that I dont offend anyone... but if I did... I Will say Sorry to you via PM... just let me know what offending words.. or feelings I have used to make you just as sad as I am now...

Onto another point of sadness... and this one might sting the offending party... not my intention.. I am not naming names.. and never will share who this was... but it has sadly added to my NN sadness this week... I was sent a voice message... so sweet... as being online all the time.. it is rare that we get to hear the voices of the other friends you make here... and this voice was a sexy as fuck voice... telling me that I am so sexy.. that he loves my lips... my tits... that everything on me was perfect... now come on.. as if that would not make any woman with slightly low self esteem feel pretty dang special!!! I listened to it first when I was in the car.. and could not make out everything that was said (cause it was too loud in the car) so when I was in the house.. I listened to it again... and sadly... it was meant for someone else.. lol... now that is an honest mistake... and kinda funny... So I share with him he sent the wrong one... or else he thought my name was a different one.. haha.. He was mortified... and said sorry... he still had an old voice message on his phone and must have sent that by mistake... he was so so so sorry.. and he sent mine to me... I giggled... listened to it... This is where my giggling stopped... it was just a monotone message... telling me that he wanted to fuck me... nothing about how hot I might be... or how much I make his dick hard... nope... just your generic message... sigh... THAT HURT!!!
I am not so naive to believe that I am the most beautiful woman in the world... nor would I want to be btw.. haha... I realize that being a BBW is NOT going to get me LOTS of attention.. LOTS of men hard... or LOTS of comments like he made to the previous womans message... BUT... it still fucking stung!!!

Onto another sad point... I was friends with someone... had been for a while too.. and sadly... without notice... they deleted me as a friend... and blocked me... ah.... what happened?? Did I do something here... and no one is telling me??? Have I truly offended said person so much that I needed to be blocked???

Anyway... I am fucking sad today... I dont have my chipper self activated what so ever... So.. I shall just try to find other things to keep me distracted today...

I dont mean to be a spoil sport here... I just wanted to vent this out... hope it dont fuck up anything with anyone else.. And also the hope that my sadness over these three points will go away.. I feel there is not real need for me to feel this way for long... just too much piled up on each other for me to breath...

Hugs to you all...

Wendy