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How did I come sofar that I have to do this.Ironically it started at age of Kindergarten.My mother prepared me by saying how the mistress used to punish naughty boys in her youth.They had to stand naked in front of the class after a beating on their behind.I should be glad that such things didn't happen anymore,she reassured me. But somehow I felt a fine tension having phantasies about those mistresses who had the names of Lady Willlpower and Lady Thornand ball.I just realised later the irony of those names and in fact they were pretty modern and good mistresses never practising such things. Neither did my mother.I had fantasies about those mistresses and I liked that tension playing with myself under the blankets,but at the same time I was afraid that something like that really might happen.About my mother I never had such fantasies and such things didn't happen in the family.There has never been any sexual abuse in the family or outside the family. When I went to another school those mistresses were out of sight and I lost the thrilling feeling.I developed substitute fantasies.And there was a remarkable thing.I discovered that sometimes I couldn't surrender myself to those fantasies and at other moments it turned out to be pretty well. I remember that at age 9 I sometimes feared to loose that fine feeling completely.I was rather shy and there was some obsession with seen naked.It was not a strict taboo at home.We learned that everybody is the same naked,but I realised that that wasn't the full truth. Round about 14-16 my attention was attracted by the novel The story of O,L'histoire d'O in the bookshelf of my father.I liked that scene in the beginnning of the woman undressing herself in the car following the commands of her companion.I didn't like it all.The second half made me feel sick.And that's always been the same for me. At age 20 I had an interesting dream.As a student I dreamt I was fucking a girl I had known at school.I was just fucking her going smooth in and out while she was laying bend over a fallen tree.I had never had such feelings about her and I had never seen moving pictures of what was going on.It was so perfect.So smooth.It happened never again to me and of course I knew in theory what to do,but wondered how it was possible I could dream about practising that way. A few years later I met a girl that stimulated my old fantasies again.She was sometimes joking about whipping boys and a flirt keeping off guys.Once I decided to speak with her about how I had become obsessed by her in a particualar way but that it should be hard to live with her in one house. Was she deliberatedely or on a subconscious level playing a game with me catching me in the web of my thought and feelings?She only said that I should't think that she was aiming to make me unhappy,say miserable,deplorable.So let it be.And in fact,though it was only as a fantasie,since she wouldn't have anything to do with such practises,indeed it gave me more 'pleasure' in my life than I could have had in any other way. We separated ways,though I kept on writing till I realised she had deceased.And I decided to break my life open and not keep those thoughts a secret anymore.I thought that would be better for me.It had become to much of an obsession and I realised I wasn't quite such a slave.It was more a way of trying out and finding finally some mutual intimacy.I wanted to make myself more free. At the end of my studies I stil lived in a student house were she came to live in.Amber,let's say Blondie.She had a boyfriend.I was older and wouldd't come between them.And in fact,she didn't stimulate my fantasies.Maybe I gave her too little attention.She started making negative remarks about fat bodies when I was there.Especially sumowrestlers on tv. I was annoyed about and had not the intention to play the game with her,but at an occasion I called her a little slut.She reacted rather icy but just slammed me in my face.I just did the same,not to hard and so the scene repeated till I caught her at the wrists;I could have broken them,but I had a good controll over myself. This couldn't go on that way ........ Having her in my hands that way,didn't turn me on,but,thought it happened pretty long ago,dicky is stil coming out thinking about this: That she makes me undress myself in front of the others in house,aspecially a girl I really liked. "Look at him naked and shaved.He is my slave now.That's his punishment.Everybody will see him.He has to show himself everywhere for everybody and do what I want.Spread your legs.Bend forward.Do you want to spank him?Hit him hard!" Does she? It didn't happen that way then,but that thought standing exposed naked for the one I loved,stil makes dickie come out,though it doesn't make me come.She can show me to everybody.Does she?Well,I don't care so much about.In fact it doesn't turn me on so much.Maybe some,like lady Helena,but I am not there.It's so long ago.It isn't the same anymore.
 
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Leaving again.It's renewed I see.It's looking better,but stil not easy navigating.
 
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I am feeling more free.I have been a member of a naturist nudist colony when I felt free enough.But stil some women do stil stimulate that fantasie more than others.Is that something in them or me?I just often took the viewpoint of the woman in front of me watching me saying to myself as if she is saying:"So there you are" watching pictures.Now I am more watching those as they are.Sometimes it turns me on on its own,but often the magical word that triggers me stil is :"Punishment." I realise I have conditioned myself and the girl more or less finished me,either she wanted so or not,but let's say,the situation is under controll.I just can amuse myself about ,though now seldom it makes me come anymore.It's a little a pity,but it happened so much to me,that I don't care about.Sometimes it's better to leave it and though it's often a minor uprising,almost invisible I stil like it as in the earliest days.No.I am not such a masochist,but I like to please the girls and have a good intimate contact,though it's now too late for me.Well,after al,it hasn't been so bad and I don't care about my exposures,but that doesn't mean,that I am available for anyone who wants.I stil am rather more reluctant.

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23-Jun-19  (4 years ago)
I am a poor man.Sometimes I play in the lotterie and if I win millions,I'll subscribe,though,it's not very satisfying anymore for me to do this.And I have seen many sites disappear and I stil miss Inge.
10-Jun-19  (4 years ago)
I'll try to work this out further in a blog later.
10-Jun-19  (4 years ago)
So from that point of view I can accept it as a punishment that I have to show myself and that everybody can see me and can say what he or she thinks.And that is to stay.I'll not remove my contributions.If someone calls me a jerk,that's what I am.And I don't care about.I just had to do.And sometimes it just turned me on,just like it turned me slightly on thinking about how to say this.Maybe I add some pictures I like the picture on the beach with the black cap.
10-Jun-19  (4 years ago)
This is the end of the 'game'. Going further this way would be kicking an old fat ugly lame duck.That would be really sick.Also in the past especially women used to remark don't lower yourself that way and have more selfrespect.But I didn't care about.And I always could say what I was thinking about.That I am not feeling a slut,don't like anal penetrations and not available for everybody.It's wrong to call a woman a slut and even if she likes that as a game,it's not a game that I want to play.
2-Mar-19  (5 years ago)
Well,that's it for march again.But for me it's better this way and even when I say I have to do so as a punishment,I didn't feel turned on,I didn't feel anything at all and I know they will never say so,but maybe some are pleased by.
2-Mar-19  (5 years ago)
I am not pleased.Just do what you have to do.


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