I saw you yesterday.. just standing there.. looking all beautiful and such.. it's almost like you don't know just how lovely you look..

I wanted to cross the street and just say hello.. I didn't want this fantasy I have of you to end. I just stood there.. wishing and hoping that if I ever did cross that street.. you would be open to me..

My bravery seems to leave me. As soon as I think of not being able to have these feelings about you anymore.. I feel my smile leave my eyes..

Maybe you should be too good to be true.. and maybe it's best if I just stay on my side of the street.

You are long gone by now.. and I keep standing there as it starts to rain.

I was thinking about you the other day.. remembering when we would play that Stroke Stop game.. I loved playing that with you..

You would lay there.. naked.. waiting for my instruction.. aching to reach out and touch me.. or your growing cock.. I would make you wait for as long as I could stand it..

Once we got started.. you would stroke for me.. slowly at first.. and then you would go really fast.. until I said stop..

You would let go of your cock.. and let it just stand on its own.. I wanted to just lean down and swallow you whole.. I remember it made my mouth water..

I would say stroke again.. and this time I would tell you how I wanted to see you only stroking the top of your cock.. I wanted your head to feel some rubbing..

You started to get carried away.. so I told you to stop.. you almost didn't stop.. I could see your dick twitching .. aching to be used again.. aching to be sat on..

I asked you to stroke slowly again.. from base to tip and back down again.. nice and slow.. it was hot as fuck.. I loved watching you stroke that beautiful cock of yours..

I let this slow stroking go on so long you told me you were close to cumming.. I quickly told you to stop.. that's when your dick started twitching so much a lot of pre-cum oozed out the tip.. I couldn't help myself.. I bent over and licked the tip like a lollipop..

I then got so carried away I placed my whole mouth on your throbbing cock.. and sucked and sucked.. you kept saying.. I'm going to cum.. I am so close..

I just kept sucking.. wanting your orgasm so bad.. Just as you were about to explode.. you placed your hands on my head.. and blew down my throat..

I could feel you jolt and jerk around as your dick became very sensitive.. I wouldn't let it go from my mouth.. knowing you came in me.. made me very horny.. I didn't want to let your cock go..

All I wanted to do was get you hard again so I could fuck you as hard as possible. Mmmm you were so tasty too.

Maybe we should do that again soon?

I hesitated for just a moment before I placed my finger tips on your skin.. Once I made contact I could feel the energy passing through.. I wanted you right then and there..

I traced my index finger all along your back to the other shoulder.. Watching it glide along.. wishing it was my lips.. I knew I needed to be patient..

The song that had just come on, was one of my favorites. I let the music guide me.. Placing my two hands on your naked back, I moved all over. Mixing light touch with passion filled deeper touches..

I could feel you relax then tense up when I moved again.. I pressed my bare breasts against your back.. letting my hands roam your chest.. You felt so warm. I started to lay some kisses on you.. gentle delicate kisses..

I let my hands roam down your torso.. up and down your thighs.. I could see I was exciting you.. I took your cock in my hand and started to gently stroke.. Going from base to tip and back down again. I could feel you getting harder as you strained getting into a different position..

I stroked a little harder and faster.. feeling the blood throb your head.. I reached around with my other hand and gently held your sac.. kissing your back still I stroked.. faster and faster.. I could see the tip getting wet..

You made such delicious noises as I kept stroking.. You started to thrust in time with my stroking.. making you harder and harder.. Your cock was so ready to burst.. I gently squeezed your sac as you told me you needed to cum..

I made sure I could watch it shoot out and said.. "you have permission" After a few more strokes and thrusts you shot your orgasm out of your hot cock..

I watched it all cum out.. getting aroused at the sight, I gave your dick one more hand hug and let it go.. "Mmmm good cock" I said as I moved away from you..

I stayed with you for a few minutes, making sure you are feeling good.. Seeing that you were comfortable..

I started caressing you wherever my fingers wanted to go.. I leaned in to give you a kiss.. a nice tender one.. I then walked to the door..

looking back, my eyes traveled up your body.. admiring you.. Starting at your feet and legs.. I wasted no time getting to your beautiful cock.. not as hard anymore.. but still just as mouth watering... Made me want you again.

I saw your torso and pretty face.. then your arms.. lovingly restrained above your head.. I smiled at you and before I closed the door I said.. "see you soon."

I see you there.. just standing.. I can feel myself getting excited.. I feel the throbbing start.. I want to touch you all over.. let my lips explore your whole body.. You have turned me on many times before.. my body remembers.. I want you.. but I stay on my side of the street.. I watch you walk.. thinking how am I ever going to get anything else done today.. my heart starts to pick up pace.. Will I follow you.. or wait till tomorrow when I know, I will see you standing there again.
I blink.. and my opportunity has passed me by.. You are too far away.. I close my eyes and remember the other times when I was closer.. I can feel a throbbing within me start to go away.. maybe tomorrow I will be brave.

This is the Colbert Questionnaire.. what are your answers?


Best sandwich?

What's one thing you own that you really should throw out?

What is the scariest animal?

Apples or oranges?

Have you ever asked someone for their autograph?

What do you think happens when we die?

Favorite action movie?

Favorite smell?

Least favorite smell?

Exercise: worth it?

Flat or sparkling?

Most used app on your phone?

You get one song to listen to for the rest of your life: what is it?

What number am I thinking of?

Describe the rest of your life in 5 words?



My answers are:

Best sandwich? BLT

What's one thing you own that you really should throw out? Stretched out comfy pants

What is the scariest animal? A moose

Apples or oranges? Apples

Have you ever asked someone for their autograph? I have not.. I always feel I'm intruding

What do you think happens when we die? This is a great question! I have many thoughts on this topic..

I think we have our judgement where we see all that we have done.. then I believe we go through life in review where we get to see how we impacted everyone around us.. we get to feel what they felt as we interacted with them.. Then.. we are given tasks to help and guide the living.. I feel when you think of your loved one who has passed away.. they are with you.. they leave once they are called by someone else.. so they may not be with you long.. but they come each time you think of them.

Favorite action movie? The accountant

Favorite smell? Mary Jane

Least favorite smell? Crap

Exercise: worth it? Absolutely!!

Flat or sparkling? Flat

Most used app on your phone? Libby it's a audio book app

You get one song to listen to for the rest of your life: what is it? Ain't got time by The Gaff

What number am I thinking of? 3

Describe the rest of your life in 5 words?
Adventure, love, friendships, hugs, and pain.

I guess now I'm known.. haha

Well.. my kidlet turns 18 this year.. Yay.. ha.. I definitely have some empty nest feelings.. But we have been actively planning for this, for the past 7 years.

I am still disabled and unable to make more than what the government kindly gives me each month.. I lose a lot of money each month due to not having a dependent anymore.. so.. I am having to give up my apartment..

The housing crisis all over the place makes it hard to find another apartment.. plus.. no one else will rent to me when they have other people, who make loads more money than I..

So.. I seem to get my long ago wish.. and I'm moving into a tiny home.. which is also a panel van.. ha..

I will be spending time converting it into a nice camper home.. I will be in it until at least next October. I do have access to my dad's garage.. so I can pull the van in there when it is too cold for my furnace.

I plan to build the interior all my self.. should be fun! I have a dead line for next May.. I want to get a seasonal camp site at my favorite campground. It should be super fun.. it is close enough to the city I live in so I can still be close to friends and family.. plus I would invite everyone to come for free camping.

My son is going to his step mother's house.. she has loads of room and would love to spend time with him.. I am grateful for her still stepping up even after her and my son's dad split up.

So.. life is going to be drastically different in just under three months. I am both excited and terrified. Ha. I am told this is normal feelings for such a lifestyle change.

I plan to do way more exercising as I will be so bored being in the van all day.. there is a lot of KM's (miles) of city pathways that I have a goal to walk on every inch of them.. I also have a big zoo.. and some other touristy places that I would not mind spending the next year, exploring.

It has been years since I took any photos of myself.. I did get a lot bigger so me not wanting to share that.. seems to be part of the reason why I stayed away so long..

Other reasons have to do with my mindset.. I was overwhelmed by the selfish men who would ask me to talk dirty to them.. and would stop talking to me as soon as they were able to jerk off.. I don't dirty talk.. but I am very open with my answers.. some.men can ask questions and get off by my answers.. which is fine with me.. except they always leave right after.. no after care at all.. such a shame! Made me feel bad!

Another reason was, COVID was traumatizing for me.. I was too scared and retreated into myself.. I feel absolutely horrible for all the friends I left.. I should have at least let you all know I was going.. The problem with that was it was not at the time intentional.. I just left.. and then as the days went by.. I got more and more anxious.. I didn't want to burden anyone with my fears.. it got easier to be away.. Once again.. I apologize to anyone and everyone who I worried by being away. Hugs!!!

So.. Why I came back now is.. I am going to need some companions for this next adventure.. This community has always been a place of ego bosting for me.. and there are so many of you who I can chat with. I am wanting to build up my village.. people who can help me pass the time.. People who are not mean and cruel.. People who make me feel like I matter. That is here at NN!

Things have changed for sure.. but the bones of the site are still alive and kicking..

I thank you for your time and I send you about a million hugs!

I am wondering how many people I used to chat with, are still around..

With status as slow as it is now.. I wonder if it can get back to what it was, when it was hopping..

I look forward to finding you all again.. Thanks for the warm welcome so far!

Hugs!!!

This button seems to be one of my most used tabs.. sucks when you see who has chosen to delete you.. some hurt your feelings.. and some you think.. I was friends with you?? I am sure that it means nothing.. but dang those hurt feelings.. it is a porn site after all.. :/

Sending hugs to one and all of you!

Goodbye friends that have gone away, I wish you well!

W

I hope you all have been doing well!

I have been having some fibromyalgia and socialization issues lately.. My communication skills are taking a hit the most and I am having a hard time being with others.. I am having a hard time with simple things, like this blog.. ha..

I cant come up with what to say.. and my mojo is still working its way back.. I took a set of pics a couple of weeks ago.. edited a few.. and left the rest.. I keep coming up with ideas.. but not like before.. and creating the captions for the pics.. used to be so easy for me.. now.. it is a struggle to come up with one that does the pic some justice.. I am working on some of those past blog challenges.. I have always loved those!!

I just wanted to share so you all know why I have not come around much..

I am sending out about a million massive hugs to all who want and need em...

HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wendy had a quiet summer.. lots of time with her almost teenage son.. And lots of medical visits.. Wendy is now able to say she has been officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.. She is also suffering from a few other ailments.. The medical professionals believe I am severely handicapped..

The main change in me is my communication with others.. I have been a hermit more and more lately.. I am unable to handle excitement in any form.. and nope not talking sexually.. haha.. I am talking about anything in your everyday life.. If I liked Christmas.. and would get excited for the day.. I would be ill for a while over that.. If any chaos happens around me.. I am ill for a few days.. and it does not even need to be my chaos.. Makes it hard to be a friend.. or at least the type of friend I used to be.. The friend I know how to be.. The one who helps you with your relationship issues.. and not just spouse.. I was great at showing people both sides of what others might be thinking.. Now.. I cant handle almost everything.. This disease seems to be taking a toll on me.. I am told it wont get worse.. but I am finding that hard to believe now.. it seems like I might be still finding the bottom of it.. Anyway.. My communication seems to be the most affected.. I tend to see words that are not actually written.. and I also lose words that are.. Sometimes entire sentences..

I am still not dating.. and oh my goodness.. it has been the change I have needed!! I LOVE that I am not looking after a man anymore.. Everyone around me, including my Dr.. thinks I should want to date again in the future.. oh my.. I sure hope not.. I was too good of a girlfriend.. and now.. I cant imagine doing those things again for a man.. And I have never been a fan of tacos over sausage.. so there wont be any seeing if the other team wants a pinch hitter.. (insert winking yellow dude(emoji) here)

I still want to write my book... and I work on it when I can.. it is hard to go back into the times of your life.. when heartache was raw.. and rampant.. Especially with the new progression of my Mr Fibro. Yay goals!

I hope you all have had a great summer!! I cant wait to catch up with you all ... and on all the Blog photo challenges I have missed!!

Sending you some Alberta Hugs!!

HUGS!