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|Tuesday, October 21, 2014, 9:02:51 PM-|
If after waiting six months to get an answer,from support, should i just give up.
A simple question asked and one that could have been answered so easily.
I am so looking forward to being back on nights, i really dislike working days, all the problems i had before are even worse now.
I am just better working alone,at the end off the day, left to just get the job done and go home.
We got the tailend of the hurricane that hit the other side of the pond, very very windy.
With the high tide and wind direction i stood and watched the waves pounding the harbour.
I was also getting ready to unload a lorry, driver had undone one part of his curtain and was on the second half, when a gust of wind caught his curtain and flung the steel pole towards him, seeing i grabbed him and pulled him away, just as it landed, where he had been standing.
Anyway only 2 more days, then hopefully some new pictures, camera is all bagged up and ready for action.
I am just hoping there is some leaves left on trees, to get some more Autumn colour.
Another part of the river, will be a different picture today, river will be running high, not like that day, when i was so peaceful, with the sun hitting the tree tops and the water flowing nice as well.
|Sunday, October 19, 2014, 6:04:47 PM-|
I woke early, this morning, practice for the week ahead maybe, just hope i can get through those 4 days.
I decided i was going for a walk,it was raining and very windy, pitch black as well.
So walking on the road for the first part, the noise off the wind in the tress, leaves falling and i saw a large branch was lying on the road, pulled it to the side.
First thing i met on the road was a sheep, must have came from the field to myside, it ran off and i never seen it again.
Then the heavans opened, it was so heavy, hearing like a drum on my hood,,but strange i like mornings like this.
I got too the woods, no options today, river to high to cross, so i walked the lng way round,, all the time the wind blowed, to my right a branch came off a tree,
Still so dark today, but i had my little headlamp on, gone are the days, i would walk in the dark,, this getting old, makes me more careful.
I got to a sheltered spot, where i could sit and eat,just a few digestive biscuits and some water, no need for more.
Sitting listening too all that was going on around me, the river racing by to my left, the sound of a tractor to my right and then a large branch coming down about 50yrds away.
Sitting thinking that if it is as wet as last year, i am not going to walk the same, spend more time at the coast, till the fields and trails dry up.
I thought of this plan, early this year, when after one day, when i was 4" deep in mud, chasing a sunrise, got the picture, but it was just not fun.
Chase the sunsets over the sea a bit more,got some ideas on things to shoot.
The rain stopped, day was now breaking,time to head home.
The moment, when the sun is just staring to rise and the magic happens, how from dark to this in such a short time, it never lasts for long sometimes, but that morning was a good one, just got better and better all around me.
|Friday, October 17, 2014, 8:49:59 PM-|
So,at work, man says to me, do you never let anyone get to close too you.
I just laughed and said no,
When i walked last weekend and since then i have thought about that.
Same answer always came up, only once.
Only one person, that really worked me out in life. Well she thought she did, but in truth, she was the only person, that i broke down my walls for totally.
I was sitting at the foot of a mountain, Eve was doing her rock chick thing, climbimg with all the grace in the world.
I watched as she climbed higher, then came back down, she sat and said, out the blue, i have finally done it, i have worked you out.
I just laughed, then she did do a pretty good job in telling me about me, she saw what i done, how i only let people get so close, how i use my shyness too my advantage, as i can sit and watch people and work them out.
How i never give trust out, how i am the strong person, i was.
When i told her, i let her see it all, i was just so comfortable with her, she was like me, in so many ways.
I had no reason to keep her out, loved her like hell then and still do, too this day, not a day goes by, whre i do not miss her.
When i walk, she probably comes into my thoughts more than anyone, She had the same love of the outdoors, we would have went to some amazing places, for me too take my pictures, she would have got a bigger kick out off, them than me, she was also, the first person, i knew, that took pictures and developed her own, film in those days.
She had a real talent, as well, she loved black and whites, loved to take pictures of our mountains, show the drama in a picture.
She was also, the first person, that put a camera, in my hands, too take a picture.
So after all these years, i miss her still as much, can never see that changing.
Nowadays, i do let people get a little closer, than i use too,i can see that and am happy to do so.
From last weekend, the sun hit the top of the trees, lit them up so well and i got my little picture.
Tomorrow,if i go out, i am going to do long exposure pictures, for the most part, time to learn how to do this properly now, will be fun.
|Wednesday, October 15, 2014, 2:07:09 PM-|
I have to work days next week, not looking forward to it, at all,but i will survive.
Is life, really as good as i make it, out to be, for the vast majority of time it is.
I just keep things simple, no great expectations in it.
My path has had a few twist and turns, but that is life.
I walk the fields most days, where once i always walked with the camera, i now can walk with out.
I once only really sat to think, to cry sometimes, to feel like screaming at the world, realizing, the only person that can make you change is yourself, but seeing how people pushed, you towards it, helps make you focus.
I am not the same person, that first came on here,, sad and lonely was my first ever status on here,, i keep it as a reminder.
The past has held me back, but that was my own doing, i was not ready to move on, was it wasted years, some probably was, but they all went towards the person i am now.
I like to think i am a fairly decent person, i let people get close, that i want too though, that will never change, some have tried to break that wall down, but it will never happen, i am just too wary of people in general.
I am back doing something, that was once a big part in my life, not really going to blog about that much, if at all.
I still take pictures, but i am more planned in what i shoot now,, i decide, what i am wanting to take, but then mother nature, decides, that i am to get something totally different,
Like when i walked on Saturday, my plan was for Autumn colours on the river, colour was not quite ready yet,, but i got my dramatic sky with the crazy colours, smiles on a face as i took my shots,yes,, still get that moment, always will i hope.
So that is where i am, where i will be tomorrow or the next day, who knows,, for the future is still to be lived.
One i took, looking down the estuary, so peaceful looking,so focused i was, never even noticed the dog, that thought it was a good idea to christen my tripod, till the owner said sorry.
|Sunday, October 12, 2014, 9:12:22 PM-|
So for a change yesterday, i decided, first bus to town and walk along the shore.
So i was on the shore for 7am, dark still, only me and the seagulls, walking along and the waves rolling in,, got a picture in my head and i knew, then time would not allow it today,, just to far to walk and not enough time,, yes one off, those moments , when i knew i should have a driving licence.
So, as i walk i am watching the sky, there is some action and i take a few pictures, i love how the aeroplanes effect the picture with the vapour trails,, some hate it, me i just like to see, colour in the sky.
My head is empty of thought now,, i am standing on the bridge looking down the estuary,, i see a nice leading line heading out and with the cloud reflection,, in the water, i take my shots.
How red the sky is becoming the sun rising behind me is giving the clouds, some crazy colours.
I look over towards the castle,, where i wanted to be so much,, i got this one, cropped it to try and get the best out off it.
Today was so different, the fields and woods.
A quick walk turned into nearer 4hrs,, i lose all track of time, when i am here, my place to think, where i can just sit and make plans,, the place where the things i keep to myself are shared,, yes i talk too trees.
Sitting now it is the leaves rustling all around you here, the slightest breze sends them off, then they fall, sitting and failing to catch them in the air as they drop,, but so much fun.
I hear birds singing and cows mooing in the distance,, we over a mile from home and i hear the ice cream van and the tune he plays.
I could sit for longer,, my phone ringing in my pocket, stirs me,, are you not coming for your dinner, oops i am late again.
When i can sit and look at this,,why be in a hurry.
|Friday, October 10, 2014, 7:44:05 PM-|
Signs of Autumn are all around,, the sun behind the fast changing colours of the leave, makes for a nice picture too me.
These are my little signs,, i walk in the woods and fields in days like this, can be cold and can be wet,, but i enjoy it all,, seeing leaves falling like confetti, is all around.
I can sit and watch for ages,, listen to the water off a river or stream, near by.
I also find new things,, learn new things,, seen a tree for years,, i knew it was a chestnut type ,, but never sure what and then this year i see, this for the first time.
So i saw the fruit on the ground,, never seen this before,, so i took a picture,then found out it is a Sweet Chestnut,, nice to learn new things.
So close the other day, for the first frosts,coming out off work, all wrapped up and gloved for the first time,, nice mornings these,, but i was more interested in bed.
Tomorrow, morning i hope to walk the shoreline, first bus is my plan and then walk the couple of miles along there,, been over a year since i have done this,, just walk and snap, hope to get that one picture,, but i get no keepers,, i will still walk and enjoy..
Hope everyone, has a great weekend
|Sunday, October 05, 2014, 6:37:44 PM-|
Been another fine week,, weather has now changed a lot,colder and a little, wetter,but still nice.
Work is a little better,interesting at times, but same old job, but i like to be working.
I had a conversation with someone during the week, his wife has been cheating on him and she has destroyed his life, by doing so,, sounds bad,, but he has cheated on her god knows how many times.
Think we was wanting me to agree with him or something,, never liked , when i said it is just karma,he said it is ok for men to cheat, but not for a woman too.
In the end i got fed up listening to him and went off and done something.
Climbed to the top off the castle cliff yesterday, sounds dramatic, but it is a nice easy climb, only slipped once, when i was just stepping back onto the shore.
But so very peaceful up there,, set up the camera and took some shots,, got a few pictures..sun was just too powerful in many.
But lying on the ground up there, looking down, is very nice, you see all the patterns in the sand, the little gulleys cutting there way through, makes such great shapes.
Nealry got christened by a seagull, missed me by inches.
But i was chasing the light, but it was just not what i was wanting.
THe castle from the bottom, i thought the tide, would have been higher at around sunset, this was what i needed as well as the actual sunset lol.
But as i was walking around the beach earlier and looking over towards town i managed to get another thing i was chasing for ages.
I got a bit off a rainbow,, i actually got a bit off 2 in one picture, it is a start, now to hopefully get the whole thing one day.
But i have my photography bug, back, the rest has done me good, i an still learning all the time, which i love, keeps the mind ticking over.
Life is one big smile just now,,this simple man, just keeps doing his simple thing in life..
|Saturday, September 27, 2014, 9:23:58 PM-|
I slept too well last night, in bed for near 11hrs, suppose being up for 34hrs had something to do with that as well.
But after getting up, funny when i sleep late, it is harder to get me going..
I eventually headed to the woods,, sometimes i just like being in them,, an escape, but a place to explore still.
I found some fungi in a tree,, took some pictures, i was in my lost place, where all i was seeing was the picture, making little changes and trying new things, got a little frustrated once, when i just could not get the angle i was wanting,, change the ballhead i told myself, before i came out it is lighter,, should have just left my usual heavy one on.
But all i done was lay against a tree and watch cows grazing in a field.
The sound of a barking dog,made me get up.
SO i walked along the fence and seen some more fungi,growing on a branch,, so climbing the fence and down into a little dip, time to get on the ground.
By now i was hungry, need to eat, so sitting having my apple and some water,, how very lucky i am.
But mind wanders in times like this, it always does,, thought off someone who thought she was playing a game with me,, that i was her toy.
I am not a player off people, see it all the time,see people get hurt, good peoples lifes ruined.
Knew of someone who decided life was too much when she found out she was someones game.
I will stick to my simple scrabble type games.
But the sun comes out and is in my eyes, time to move once again, time to walk down the steep slope, only slip once.
Time to decide, cross the river and head home, or stay in the woods for a while.. home time.
I liked the clouds,but most off all i like all the different contours i see, each leading your eye somewhere.
Another off the cow shots. I had a lot of fun taking these.
|Monday, September 22, 2014, 8:10:11 PM-|
So, life goes on at a nice pace,, had a bit off illness last week,, but all good now.
Been on holiday since last week, not got many left but,, that is ok, weather is changing quick and well no point taking days off when it will be cold wet and grey.
I had kind off lost my way with my pictures recently,, took a break,, went out a few times and it was just not right,, but today it all fell, back into place.
Took one picture that i was really happy with,, i have taken a few pictures over the last few weeks,, but i was deleting most off them.
On one off my walks, i was thinkiing off my Dad,, never really mention him to much to be honest,, he let me down too much, when you are the one to discover he was having an affair,yes it all changed then.
When you are 15 and find that out,, life changes,, it did that day.
I am getting close to 50 and i am looking forward to it,, got a few things planned for next year.
life is just full of smiles, i am so lucky in life and for that i am greatful.
One of the better pictures, i had taken over the last weeks,, cows just kind off posed for me,, so the picture, had to be taken.
|Tuesday, September 16, 2014, 4:13:07 PM-|
So this week, my little country decides if it wants to be an independant country from the rest of the UK.
Now i am not going to comment to much on my thoughts, i do not like politics,,
Been asked god knows, how many times, how i am going to vote and the answer is always the same,my vote, my choice.
Been told how i should vote by so many times,, but i can make my own mind up and live with it.
The sad thing is, i have seen the bad side, two friends, from babies till now nearly 60 and got into a fight over this,
So no matter what, i feel for a generation, there will still be arguements over this.
So what else is going on,just the usual things, walk, work sleep,,usual thinking.
As i walked today, the thought of why i am single, came into my head, more and more i see, that a lot is to do with me.
I like my own time, too much, can see how that is a problem, i am back doing something i love, but i think this has, made me see that even more.
I just get caught up,on something and i am focused on that, so many other things are forgotten about.
But i am better at balancing things now and spread my time out better, set myself times to do something and just stick to them.
The season is changing, leaves falling and colours are changing, been so dry recently, can not even remeber the last time, we had real rain, it will come, hopefully it will remember to stop this year and not go on, for the months like last year.
I am thinking we will get some snow, this year, got a feeling, never got much last year.
Taken from my side garden, crazy sky, too good a sky to miss.
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