He going away because he loves me and thinks he isn't good enough for me and he doesn't want to hurt me. I've said all I can say to try and convince him otherwise, he won't listen. He's awesome, the most amazing man I ever met and I will NEVER have a bad word said against him. EVER.
Am so, so sad and lost....I think I need some superglue to hold it together. I love him for him not who he think he should be.
"Sounds a lot like the old "it's not you, it's me". This guy must have his head examined! You are someone I'd do ANYthing to be with, given the chance, Lil. I hope and pray that he will come to his senses and turn around and come back! If there is ANY thing I can do to make you feel better, please let me know!!!"
You ever wake up in an amazing mood only for it to be shattered within minutes? Yep, it's 9.10am and already I've managed to piss off two people completely.
I have so much going on in my head right now,training, assessments but what the doc said yesterday is taking priority. Ohh, it's nothing too serious but I do need to work out a management plan to get some normality back into my day, this ain't going away for a long time so I need to learn to cope.
I had an early night last night, popped a pain pill and left the world behind and it was fucking great. I only woke once at about 4am which is bloody good going for me, I even managed it with little person snoring beside me because she had nightmares and scrambled in beside me 8.30ish.
Anyway, as I was saying...I've pissed people of already, one of them I don't even know what the hell I'm supposed to have done, the other I used that terrible, terrible word at...you know, the 'no' one.
I've made some massive changes in my life the last couple of weeks but I have to make more, and I don't know where to start. It's impossible to follow the docs orders, physically impossible....I'm a single parent with a job (even though it is voluntary, it's a commitment)...it ain't gonna work, and yes, I know I said 'ain't' several times but I'm in that kind of mood....right now I'm in an angry as fuck mood, woe betide anyone who crosses my path today.
As for those I pissed off, I'm sorry but I'm telling the absolute truth and to the other...well there ARE buses that go there you know!
Going to hide out for the day, you both made me cry. I'm feeling kinda tired.
"HUGS - fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.......and fuck 'em twice if they are cute (it's a quote my 2nd ex had....) YOU are the important one, you, your family, your job. If people want to be part of your life they will not try to dampen your spirits."
- PoeticLicense
Monday, June 17, 2013, 8:13:40 AM- and on that bombshell....
The divvy from yesterday has just got out of a taxi, into her car and driven off furiously.
I assume she couldn't get it out of a tight space last night after all lmao!
"well its not like she wasn't warned .....and I hope it cost her a fortune in taxi fares too :)"
- Safire13
Sunday, June 16, 2013, 4:00:29 PM-
I come home from the yard to find some divvy mare reversing up the cul-de-sac towards me. Politely I wait. She then attempts to parallel park right slap bang across the front of my house so I wait patiently thinking she is gonna move up...the space is plenty big enough for two cars...no. So I move up beside her.
'Hi, can you pull forward a bit please so I can park behind you?'....smiling.
'Why? I need the space to get out'.
'No you don't, there's room for two cars and this is my house you are blocking'....smiling.
'So? I want to park here, why does it matter where I park?'
'As I already explained, this is MY house you are blocking and there's room for two if you move your car up'....smile getting smaller.
'I can't get out of small spaces.'....it's a Peugeot 106 FFS!!
'Well in that case I suggest you get out of the FUCKING space now while you can and stop blocking my FUCKING house!'....still smiling sweetly.
A look of horror. I think she's still sat there now.
So I did the best parallel parking in my life, squeezed my car into the gap and left it an inch from her bumper. Smiling at her horrified face I got out and came indoors.
"Seuss was & still will be the MAN! bless his soul, thnx for sharing this Bunz. *hugs... while naked of course*"
- LakeFX
Thursday, June 13, 2013, 6:29:29 PM- Toy's challenge.
Ok...to fight back against the negativity created recently in many blogs, MastersToy91 has challenged us to write a blog about what we love about NN.
Well....
I came here as part of a couple a long time ago. He has moved on, I'm still here...but why?
I love the diversity of people, I talk to people of all age ranges and from all different types of background.
I love the non-judgemental side of the site, that people can be who they want to be.
I love that I can really be me without limits on my thoughts.
I love that I can post pictures and view those of anyone I chose.
I love when status is rocking in the fun way, the laughs that can be had then and I love that there is always someone around.
I love that during my years here I have laughed and cried with people and for people, that the community is still strong in some ways.
I love the freedom NN (the site, not the boss ;) ) has given me to grow in a sexual way.
I also love the fact that the 'Big Boss' is so personally involved with the site and not a nameless 'contact us'.
I love something else about it right now too...but that's a different story!
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